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2006-08-05T01:37:00.000+10:00

2006-04-06T03:30:00.000+10:00

LOng Time...

yeah i know its been awhile. im at tech center right now. wit austin and scott. theyre arguin about myspace. lol. guys.

anyways... i have class at 11. and yeah i lost my goddamn cell phone. im gonna got oTmobile store earlier and im gonna get a new card same number.

spring quarter is already fun. its only like the 3rd day. but i love it. i should get a 4.0 for math. have to. anyways.. im gonna hang out with austin this weekend. tight stuff.

i gotta go.

2006-02-15T06:08:00.000+11:00

Haha.... this is FUN!!!!

You make me smile because... by xLiL PreP1x
Name...
Your Laugh ....	Makes me laugh
Your Smile ...	Rocks my world
Your eyes ...	Twinkle in the moonlight
Your scent is....	Exotic
Your lips are...	Perfect
Your hair ....	Shines with a perfect balance
Your friendship ....	Is Supporting
Your hug ...	Makes me feel safe
Your kiss ...	Always makes me ask for more
Your love ....	Entrancing
You .....	are the best

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2006-01-31T13:04:00.000+11:00

2 posts in one day... bored i guess...

yeah, im at the library.. waitin for mah night class. listenin to some songs from my ipod. ahh. and finally, i got my hw done. lolz.
well,.. ive been doin alot of thiknin lately..bout which uni i should go to.. 1st choice.. still texas. 2nd berkeley. 3rd ucla.4th UW.5th uni wisconsin. haha.. so if i realy get accepted in wisconsin..im gonna hang out with JT!! thats gonna be kool.

but anyways.. im kinda bored here. scott's talkin to some japanese gurls. that bastard.lol but hes a good guy really.

ah,, im gonna start writing this in Indo.. hmm
jadi begini critanya...

bingung gw mo nulis apa. gyaaa..bodoh.
anywyas, iye.. tiba2 gw kepikiran ma sanur.. kangen gw.. ma tman2 gw.. dan kehijauannya.. yah walopun skolah gw disini juga ijo2 tapi berbeda. entah lha.. gw seneng disini jujur. tapi knp gw merasa ad aj yg beda. ya iyalah beda.. maksud gw.. gw disini bisa dibilang enak. bebas. as in dlm peraturan ga ketat. baju seenaknya. dikelas juga mo makan minum seenak jidat.

mungkin lo smua mikirnya enak. bebas. tapi sejujur2nya.. gw ngerasa ad yang nggak aja dr smua itu. jujur.. gw lebi menghargai waktu gw slama gw disanur. gw ngerasa ad yg nggak saja.
dan yah.. menurut gw...nikmatinlah waktu lo slama disanur. ntar klo lo udah kluar.. pasti lo akan kangen dgn segala keresean2 sanur. percaya lah sama gw. gw dah hampir seaton kluar dr sanur.. dan gw bisa ngerasain. gw enjoy disni..tmen2 gw asik smua.yah hanya saja.. tak tahu lah.. gw hanya rindu mungkin.

ya sudah lah.. i just wanted to get that off my chest. i have class to attend in 45 mins. better get myself prepared.

well i still got some time though. =P. aduh saya bingung nih.. tadi gw pas luch ktmu ma camron dishes. haha.. dya crita ttg tmen swedish-nya.. ARGHHHH~~!!! sial.. gw yakin dya pasti knla Martin.. 2 gebetan gw bertemu. tidak terdengar bgtu bagus. lolz. yg satunya dah mantan si.. hatiku kini hanya untuk martin seorang. hhaa..

anyways.. i gotta go.. ttyl b ye

2006-01-31T09:46:00.000+11:00

Geez, Finally.. I went thru that shit...

the only thing i have to face now is.. the fact that i might need to change my schedule again. FUCK it. i just talked to courtney on msn, and apparently, she's skipping school. that lil bitch. i have class tonite. english. and now. im trying to do my homework. TRYING. theres just a bunch of stuff...uhmm well.. theyre distracting me. i'm really2 sleepy. I'm waiting for andi to finish his class and were goin to get something to eat. seriously, havent had anything since last night.

Anyways, the last few weeks ive been compelety sober. to be honest, well ive been having some serious problems, but i always believe somethning good will come along. and im still waiting for that thing. is it gonna be the thing i'm askin for?? haha. we'll see.

soot. i better keep my mouth shut.

2006-01-20T07:21:00.000+11:00

...Welcome to my World... (Double Clutch)

Everytime I try to see things from the other side
I think that i might lose my mind
I'm a hopeless case, I'm losing face
So many wrongs to be erased
Sometimes I wish someone would take my place

Welcome to my world, my life
When nothing that I say is right
And nothing that i do can change a thing

This is my day, my way
I wanna say goodbye to yesterday
I'm afraid of what tomorrow's luck will bring

2006-01-03T10:03:00.000+11:00

...Tomorrow is the 1st day of Winter Quarter...

I'm ssooooo excited. i Love school. i really do. haha.. seriously, school is fun. real fun. its not just about all those formulas, theories and all that kind of crap. Its bout friends.
Speaking of friends...i kinda miss my friend back in indo and Oz. My Oz friends, i wonder where they are now... some are already in college i guess.. i just saw Mel pics on fs.. haha.. i kinda miss her. its been 5 frickin years. cant believe it.
when i come back to Indo this june.. im kinda thinkin bout goin to Oz and meet my besties.. we'll see lah. cuz i'd prolly have to go to germany to see my sis wif my mom. we'll see.

Listening to the ataris right now.ahhhh im hella bored. u know what.. i think i hate that girl.
i thought she was a good girl and all that. but ..i dunno i think shes kinda selfish which i hate alot. fuck it. dun wanna think abpout that kind of thing nemore.
school...school...school... thats all i have to think about. I have to improve my grades. seriously. its still good though. it was just.. not satisfying. i know i couldve done way much better.

ive made my new year's resolution...but sorry guys.. i dun feel lyk telling. =P you'll find out.
im goin to school after im done with this. im gonna pay my tuition. and prolly meet some hot guys. lols. nah. just jokin.

2006-01-01T19:12:00.000+11:00

So It's New Year...

Hell Yeah... It's 2006 baby!! New Year, New Life...
Damn, I feel sooooo good..If I could have just one wish...It'd be THAT!! It's just something unimportant...but it means alot to me. So, like... this year i spent the most important thing, the countdown thing on the street.. haha...soo stupid... but u know what...i was looking at the sky, was making my wish for next year... when it suddenly rained!!! haha...does it mean that my wish is gonna come true?? well i hope so... i really do..

so.. i just wanted to say ::

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2006-01-01T12:42:00.000+11:00

I should be grateful for everything…..

Tonight is Christmas Eve…. I’m here sitting alone in my room… thinking bout all I’ve been through this year. I know it’s not New Year’s Eve yet, but I just thought it might be good to start reviewing.

Last year... this time... I was in Germany, celebrating Christmas with my sister, and now. Where am I? Yes... I’m in America!!! It’s just the place where I’ve always wanted to be and I know I always will. Just love this place…Ever since I got here last September... I’ve learned a lot than I could have ever imagined.

So many things happened this year…and I never regret any of them. Some of them have made me realize something I’d never really thought before. Though I broke up with Jay... it didn’t make me cry my ass off…I know it wasn’t gonna change anything… I’m thankful that God sent him to my life... He taught me a lot.. Whatever he did for me is what has carried me all the way. I know if I hadn’t met him, I would never have been what I am now. So after one year and six months... we decided to end it. I still love him in a very different way… I love him as my brother and my best friend. We’re still friends until this very second, and I hope we always will be.

I have to thank my mom for letting me come here to study… I’ve met millions different kinds of people from different parts of the world. .. And It’s kinda changed my perspective of life. I love the way they treat me… well, yeah MOST of them… and I learned something…Treat people that way you want to be treated…And I have a huge respect for them. And I’ve got zillions of good friends here... and I love them as much. It’s just as good as I’ve imagined.

And I guess my life has changed a lot. Since I got here… everything’s changed and it changed for the better. So I’ve been here for like almost 4 moths but it feels like I’ve been here forever. That’s all because of the good time I’ve been having… Remember when I told you about the snow fight?? Gee, I loved it a lot. Thanks to all CCA residents. Lolz. Especially Mark, Cameron, Johnny, Ryan, Hiroyuki, Mai, Gran, Curtis, Naomi, Yuki, Luke and those who were on my team. We rocked!! ~~too bad we didn’t take a pic of our team…hix...~~

If I were asked what I wanted for Christmas, it definitely would be…happiness (which I’ve already got). And that happiness is the kind of happiness that comes from all the people around me.

So, I’d like to thank all of you, for being such incredible friends of mine, and for all your support that has brought me here and made me “me”. I don’t know what I’m gonna do without you guys. I love you.

(Written on Dec 24, 2005)

2005-12-16T10:45:00.000+11:00

Looks Like I'm in love.....

jadi begini critanya...td pagi gw ad final math jam 9 trus.. gw ktinggal bus jam 8:44..nah akhirnya gw naek taksi.. gw telat masuk klas,... trus tempat yg biasa gw dudukin itu...barisan belakang kanan...udah penuh tmpt gw diambil ma org.. trus guru gw bilang "bentar gw ambil bangku dulu" trsu dr barisan depan ad co atu bilang" ada 1 kosong neh.." trus ya udah akhirnya gw dudk samping dya gtu.. trus ternyata gw lupa bawa calculator...kayaknya dya nydar trus dy udsa selese dy pinjempin kalkunya ke gw.. trus dy nungguin gw mpe kelar sambil tiduran..... duh... baik skali si ni cowok.. mane lumayan gantenk lagi. hihihih...
sepertinya gw jatuh cinta... walakh...najies... ga lah.. cuma menghargai aje..

so todays the last day of school... im sooo excited liburan...liburan..natal... ntar gw mo ke supermall neh... mo belanja buat natal..heheh.. tinggal buat si corry... ma sepupu gw... ma emak gw juga si.. .bis itu buat gw ndiri.. hehhe....

ya sudah ya... MERRY XMAS HAPPY NU YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-12-09T07:18:00.000+11:00

I miss my friends LOADS~~~!!!!

tak tahu ya saya... tiba2 kangen bgtu...huaahahahua... anyways... hows life everyone??? next week is the fuckin final week... gotta get myself prepared.. im tired..

hey remeber that girl i was tellin ya bout?? shes pissin me off.. she acts like.. i dunno.. like she knows everything.. when she doesnt.. like, one day she preached bout the guyi like .. i was like.. what the fuck are you talkin bout?? like, how long have you known me?? geez.. A-hole!!!!

hey i kinda gtg here... ill ttyl ok???

2005-12-03T18:27:00.000+11:00

SNoW FighT~~~!!!!!

haha..so last night it was snowing... we got like 10 cm snow!! i was sooo damn excited.. and u know what the funniest thing was almost all CCA residents were out snow fighting!!! even my good lookin neighbors!! Lolz....it was FUN!!!! lots of fun... glad i didnt miss it!! and I accidentally-on-purpose hit Cameron on his face!! lolz..
There were two teams; White guys vs Asians....haha.... well, that was alot o fun...i love this place so damn fuckin much!!

anyway, i moved out!!! with caroline...(who else?=P) and i dun giva a damn about that girl..i dun care... I HATE HEr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had my chem exam today.. and i think i did fine... LOLZ

so i guess i'll ttyl

2005-11-07T12:46:00.000+11:00

Hello...world!!!!

How's everything goin?? hope everythings goin ok...

the latest from me is... I'm moving out!!!! it's not that i dont like it here.... i LOVE it here... but...i'm lookin for something cheaper!! haha and bigger... and i gotta say goodbye to my handsome neigbours.. haha.. those guy who live across my apt... hoho.. whatever... i dun care anymore...we still go to the same school anyway...

hmm and i just realized something.... theres a bunch of good-lookin guy in this place... and i know.. when the time comes.. one of them will be mine... just dont wanna rush it... good things come to those who wait right?? thats what my fortune cookie says.. xP..LoLz...

Havent talked to any guys much lately... tha last guy i talked to was Ryan... and we were talkin about music and he told me that Bayside drummer Beatz.. got killed in a car accident...hix..
RIP....

Ok... subject change!!! Planning on taking full credit next quarter.. so that im gonna be free in the summer!!! wanna watch world cup...then prolly..come back to Indo...
dont get me wrong babe!! i dont miss Indo..at all!!!! I just miss my friends...

Winter break is coming...not planning to do anything yet.. just wanna stay here i guess...i only got 2 weeks off anyway... dont have that much time.... and Jay's coming for christmas....we're gonna have lots of fun! our 1st meet since i dunno.. two years ago i guess...

so..i guess im gonna gonow... got homework to do... see ya soon

2005-11-03T16:22:00.000+11:00

HAHA....I'm HapPY beiNG me!!!!!

OK...i dont have a bf...but it doesnt matter that much... i have good friends..and theyre willing to help me..anytime..anywhere...i'm here..in america.. somewhere i gotta be..huehhe...
my classes are goin well .. think im doing pretty well... uhmm...

how many times do i have to tell ya that I am happy with my life??? i dont care about all those bad things some people spit on me... just dont give a damn..

haha...November 8... it got me wonderin!!!! we'll see,,..

much22...

2005-10-21T06:19:00.000+10:00

Damn Fuck...

I'm tired.. tiredtiredtiredtired....Ahh..need my damn sleep,, kesal kesal kesal kesal......

2005-10-18T06:57:00.000+10:00

i juz LearNed An impoRtant lesson.....

Mulai detik ini...gw mendedikasikan hari minggu buat bikin PR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no matter what...
Thats all i can do for now.. my 4.0s gone.. for some reasons i dont feel like telling....

I'll make it up next quarter i promise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-10-13T15:46:00.000+10:00

AkHirNYA....

Hoohho..kmrn akhirnya gw bli Tv ma DVD palyer...Senang..td gw bis nonton laguna beach...duh...mas Stephen keren abis...haha.....
besok Gw teSt math...Jumat gw SpeeCh..duh tatut nih...heheh...sabar2....class speech pertama dan terakhir gw disini...sneang! quaretr depan gw mo cr kerja.. klo bs pengen jd CLEO...bise nak2 cleo aseek...klo gw ga bisa jd Cleo..gw kerja dulu..summer gw aply cleo...ato student ambasasdor...who knows?? tp gw yakin gw bs msk cleo or at least senate...hooho..biasa feeling tak tentu tp tingkat kbnaran 90%...pengen CORE lg...itu doang yg gw incer..hah trus bs ktmu byk orang and make friends wif them....

ya udah ya gw mobobo..bsk gw bgn pg buat blajar ma lanjutin PR...deeeee

2005-10-12T04:11:00.000+10:00

My Dream last nite tells me to back off...

Yes.. i guess so.. in my dream HE asked me out... well if it were to happen.. then things would be good... but things are not really good at the moment...so maybe i just need to back off a lil bit.. and concentrate on my school instead of thinkin bout guys.... i believe there's somebody for anybody...i just wanna have fun with my friends now... no guys allowed!!! haha..
but if theres a guy likes me and i like him... i'll give it a try.. dengan catatan dy memenuhi kriteria gw.... hahha... kriteria gw : prefferably satu ras dgn my last bf.., pinter, baik hati dan KLO NGOMONG DISARING.... ga tau lh gw agak sebel ma satu orang disni anak indo.. klo ngomong kagak diayak....ngeselin bgt laganya...otak jg kagak punya... liat aj ntar syapa yg nilainya lebi bgs...HUH..

Gw lagi di library neh.. kososng 2 jam... ntar malem gw mesti bikin pr mat...hr kamis gw test...huhhu..doain yah...moga2 tes gw bagus...

2005-10-08T07:46:00.000+10:00

"Almost"

I almost got drunk at school at 14
Where I almost made out with the homecoming queen
Who almost went on to be miss texas
But lost to a slut with much bigger breastes
I almost dropped out to move to LA
Where I was almost famous for almost a day

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost loved you
I almost wished u would've loved me too

I almost held up a grocery store
Where I almost did 5 years and then 7 more
Cuz I almost got popped for a fight with a thug
Cuz he almost made off with a bunch of the drugs
That I almost got hooked on cuz you ran away
And I wish I woulda had the nerve to ask you to stay
And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it
You kept me guessing and now I'm destined to spend my time missing you
I almost wish you would've loved me too

Here I go thinking about all the things
I could've doneI'm gonna need a forklift cuz all the baggage weighs a ton
I know we had our problems I can't remember one
I almost forgot to say something else
And if I cant fit it in I'll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all up and then I threw it away

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it
You kept me guessing and now
I'm destined to spend my time missing you
And I almost had you
I almost wish you would've loved me too

2005-10-07T14:34:00.000+10:00

Wahh... aku SenaNG....

yupz..tomorrow is Friday.. means.. weekend.. cuit2...we're going out tomorrow night a movie maybe..there will be me, Sasha, Caroline, Jeff, Hiro, Soma, Alice, and prolly Camron...hihi..its gonna suck though...cuz everyone has a date.. caroline-jeff, Sa-Hiro, Soma-Alice...hixhix..so its just me and Cam who get left behind...hix...Lolz..im just kidding..it doesnt matter that much...
the point is i get to hang out with my best buddies...but who knows? maybe camron an i will be what soma and alice are now...haha.. if u guys know what i mean....*evil smile* we'll see lah...

So.. i'll have Chem lab again tomorrow.. means class will start at 8.. then i'll have to wake up at 7...hmm... not a prob actually but.... since i almost didnt get my sleep last night...*sigh* was talkin to Bill on the phone till late...like 1 in the morning.. damn..

so saturday.. we're gonna buy a TV...and a DVD player... yes.. finally.. Jeff promised he'd take us tp Fry's by his car...Lisa has the day off today and she made us some cranberry muffins!!! yum..
and we made some cookies the night before...so perfect

Since i have to wake up early tomorrow...better go to bed...i'll try to finish that book tonight...did i tell you bout that? My sister's keeper... its a good book... Jodi Picoult...

ok..i'm not gonna stuff your head with anymore crap...clock is running...nite..nite..

2005-10-05T07:40:00.000+10:00

SAkit KEpaLA....benar2...SAkiT....

Anjrit nyEt.. homewoRK gw BAnyAKnyA ga KirA2... Chem, MAth, Blom Bikin Prelab Questions..anjritt....blom mikiRin topiC buAT SpeeCh... ArGHHhhhhhhh.....mo mAti AJe rasanYA....besok gw ada lAb bwat Chem lagi... gmn gw ga mau mati...ntar uda janji ma sasa ke suoermall bikin hape.. huahahhh...tau dah gw pusink gmn...gw cape bgt nyet... bsk bsru hari rabu.. besok ad quiz chem lagi.anjrit tu si Sue maunya apa si?? udah lab ada quiz pula... peer laen lagi.. hari jumat ga tau ni mau ngapain.. pengennya si jalan2 kemana kek...huaahhh....gw di library... (again) abis bikin peer chemistry... ngantuk nyet.. pengen pulang....pulang makan trus tidur huehehuehe......eh speech gw dpt 14 out of 15 lo...huahahha....lucu2...gw speech....tjk..tjk.. ga nyangka kan??? haha.. ya udah yah.. gw mo bikin pr math dulu yak...haha... thaaaaaaa

2005-10-04T07:33:00.000+10:00

What'S GoiN oN????

Lsat saturday...i called my mom and she told me that there were 3 bombs in Bali...i was like " what the heck is goin on??" damn... i dunno what to say... i really dont...
and i feel like i dont give a shit... sigh.. was just wonderin what they were thinkin?? they dont have hearts that for sure... whyw?why?why? wish i had the answer...

so.. whats goin on with me... m in the library ,,, haha.. free internet...knp di Indo ga bs kae gini yah?? internet gratis buat student....ahh...pusink aku...
so...the latest from me is.... i broke up with my bf.. and i got rejected by a guy i really like.. BUT... i have new best friends... Sasha and Caroline.. and also that guy who rejected me.. well i dun really like him anyway,, u know hes just a fling... adn there's still a whole bunch of cute guys i like.. all i gotta do is choose...hahah... i have this thing for a guy named Camron...not that Cameron McKee... Camron wihout an e..
but anywyas.. i kinda gotta go here.. were goin to the bank and then do a lil bit of grocery shopping... huh.. im already beat for the day...lols..
so.. see ya guys later.,...

2005-09-30T07:08:00.000+10:00

Haha...entertaining myself with some bullshit......

Damn... i really hate...that kind of person who like to look down on others...and always think that she/he is the best...fuck it.. feel like i dont give a shit...but you know.. i dont need that kind of friend in my life...fuck it fuck it....

sombong banget....tai...ko gw slalu dibuntutin ma org kae gtu ya? kaga di indo di sini....anjrit tai sampah....thanks to Jeff for making me realize shes not even worth it...

All i wanna do now is study study study.... im not giving shit to that girl...later, you'll see what im made of...and youre gonna eat all those crap youre giving me...

do Whatever you feel like.. i dont care...just wait and see.....

anywaysss.... another party is coming....haha..its not a party actually....its just a dinner...haha...we'll see lah...

I really love it here... i have some good friends already...orang2 yg mungkin ga akan gw temuin di Indo...im glad i got the chance to be here.. i dont care bout what other people think...some of them think ive made a wrong choice.. but i really dont care... i know whats good for me...and i dont need anyone telling me what should i do with my life.. cuz i know it.. i know what iwanna be.. i know where i wanna be.. my future is mine...

whatever happens tomorrow, oor even the day after tomorrow.... i will never regret what ive decided...u know what i mean.. walopun kata org2 gw bakal susah nanti gw blm mture enough or whatever.... gw ga akan menyesal...sendainya saja gw tidak memutskan dan gw ga ngotot utk pegi.. gw mungkin ga kan pernah nemuin kebahagian seperti yg gw rasakan saat ini...gw punya temen2 yg care ma gw...TEMEN YG BNER2 TEMEN.... bukan temen di mulut doank...

jujur sejujur2nya gw lebih bahagia disni..biar kata gw jau dr emak gw...tapi gw jauh lebih baahgia...walopun gw harus kerja keras buat ,mencapai ap g gw inginkan walopun gw ga bisakae ank2 org yg bisa beli mobil hura2 ga keruan....

huahuahuah....im in the library now..sumpah gw cinta mati ma ni skolaan ...tjk tjk.... ive never wanted something this bad.. and ive never felt so sure...now ive got the chance to be anything i wanna be...and i know i can be something more...

soo,, update update.... hr ini hr k4 gw skul...and i just realize that school isnt that bad...school rockz... a place where u can meet dozens kind o people...adn make friends with them... belajar.. mang kewajiban si... jd mo dibilang pa lagee?? di sini gw balajar ditotal2 seminggu cm 16 jem... jd kira2 sehari 3 jem..tjk.. tpi peernya kae tai lebi2an Sanur..huahau...

trus gw mesti beli goggles buat chem...bli lab note book...huaa...org2 sini asik aj..seru bo...demen banget dah...
gw binun neh mo crita apa lagi....laper gw.. huahuahuahua.. didnt get my lunch..was workin on that speech...hahahahha...

duh pengen bli cdnya ALKALINE TRIO... si Ryan jg demen loh,...huahuahua...next month de.. masi byk keperluan yg lebi penting...
disini byk anak surabaya yg aneh ..yg 1 pelittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt bgt.. yg 1 lagi kecentilan..yg satu belgu..sok pinter....padahal begok...gw bnci de ma smua org berlogat..huahuahuhau....bukan gw ddoang ko.. y laen juga....skrg gw maen ma ank2 senat..huaha,,, gaya abiz.. bise mrk leb i ramah dan welcome.. Sheena, Jason, Jordan, Jeff, Derek, Jolyn, Cameron.... masi banayk sekaleeeeeeeee....

eh2.. uda dengan lagunya Ryan Malclom yg Something More tak??

ya suw la ya..gw mo balik ke apt neh..mo bobo ngantukkk....see ya guyss

2005-09-26T01:37:00.000+10:00

I Had The GReatest BUrrthDaY evER..........ThankS To MY FRienDS........

Yeah...i had a Party Last night..and it wAs GRRRREATTTTT....if someone ask me how my weekend was i'll say..."AWESOME"!!!!!!!! It really was....

It wasnt the gifts i was expecting from people...its just the greetings...(thanks for the gifts though..=P)..and i did get a lot of unexpecting greetings which made me SMILE...i was a bit dissapointed though..cuz someone forgot about my birthday..but well im not gonna make a big deal out of it ..my weekend was still great...with or without it...

So I wanna thank everyone...for everything....thanks to Sasha and Caroline for helping me set up the party and for inviting Cammy =) (though he didnt come) and for helping me clean up....(free Starbucks for you guys...=D), and Jeff, thanks for the picture..( I love you, Jeff =P), Derek and Ryan thebest guitarist ever, thanks for coming and "entertained" us...*LOLZ JK*..

Thanks to Momoko, Yurika, Marcella, Oyuuna, Stephanie, Tyler, thank you all for coming and made my day...and my indo friends Soma, Hendra, Tony, Andi, Ivan, Randy, Rita, Draco, Yoko, and Jessica (thanks for the cake..i liked it), Rizky, Darryl, Keefe, Billy, thanks for coming guys....

and last but not least...Thanks to JAY...i dunno how many times i've said Thank you..but it never seemed to be enough..so again Thank You for always trying to make me happy..I love you...

now..i gotta get back to reality...classes start on Monday *sigh*...now that im older i have to be more responsible, rite? the fun days only lasted a while... but it was worth it...

Thanks to everyone who wishes me Happy Birthday =)

2005-09-02T23:20:00.000+10:00

It'S a WEEK away.....Can't WaiT anY LonGEr.....

uh ok...so...less than 10 days...i wont be here anymore....im gonna start what i call "new life"..
so...ga tau hrs snang pa sedih...senenk pasti..sedih juga iya...bingung sedkit..takut? not at all...i've got some friends who " got my back"...haha..we'll see...

final words from me....something that i learned...

Don't worry about your problems now baby 'cuz
They just don't matter when it comes down to the fact
That everybody's got problems now babyA
nd life's too short to keep them bottled up inside
'Cuz I know
When life feels like a racecar speeding down
It's one way street
That I'll go anywhere
that feels like heaven down this one way street
'Cuz I know that everything will be fine

diambil dr lgnya Allister "racecars"

so...guys...thanks for everything yah...bwat smuanyaaa...dr hal yg palinng kecil mpe hal2 gede...mmm thanks alot....

2005-08-28T13:38:00.000+10:00

Duh....B.I.N.G.U.N.G

2 minggu lagi aku berangkat
Duh..kok cepet banget yah??

Jatah bagasi dikurangi dr 32 kilo/koper mjd 23 kilo/koper per 1 september
Duh...jadinya mesti bawa 4 koper donk??

Aku baru dapet rejeki nomplok
Duh...bingung mo diapain yah??

Dilemma : antara boardshorts dan sendal Energie
Duh...beli 2-2nya duit tak cukup...

Cuma punya waktu 6 jam buat belanja di S'pore
Duh...sempet ga ya??

Mau belanja di S'pore...
Duh...tasnya udah ga muat...

Mau 'mematikan' keanggotaan Odiva dan mengambil kembali deposit yg 100 ribu itu
Duh...kok ga sempet2 yah?

Duh...B.I.N.G.U.N.G

2005-08-12T23:39:00.000+10:00

WeitSS....AnoThEr 3 ~~moNThS~~ WEEKS to GO...

HuAHHaaa...finally...i'm GOIn to the StateS!! i know ive said this like a zillion of times and i still can't believe it..
it's jusT too good to be true...im so excited i couldve scream at the top of my lungs
It's definitely a dream comes true..

This year is so special for me...after 10 years im coming back..an i'll be turning 17 on spt 24..2 days bfor my classes at GRCC begin..u know what...when i was younger like 14 or 15 i used to say this "knp sih ultah 17 aj mesti dirayain ampe pesta bepuluh-puluh juta? mang pa bedanya ma ultah biasa? klo 17 trus mo ngpain?"
i know i was pretty stupid that time.. i know i cant say that line now..since my 17th bday..on my 17th bday..i'll be in the place where i really wanna be.. and its washington state..which happens to be my bf's hometown..my 17th bday will be a turning point for me...im gonna start over..new school, new friends, new place..just hope everything turns out well..im a lil bit afraid though..i know some of my besties..who live there..always say.." i got your back hon.." i just i dunno..i think its not unusual to have this feeling..we'll see lah..

i had my farewell last night...just wanna say I HAD THE GREATEST NIGHT in my life...
Thanks yah yg udah dtg...thanks berat bwat smuanya, hadiah2nya...i like em...

wktu les eec bln juni-juli kmrn....kita diliburin 2 hari krn klas gw byk ank klas 3nya..pada mo lulus2an...trus dia bilang pokoknya intinya...pada saat lu ninggalin high school saat paling penting...krn lu mungkin ga kan ktmu tmen2 lo lgi for the rest of your life....hixhihixhixhixhixhix...

gw jga ga tau apa yg akan terjadi ma gw nanti..but just wanna make the best memories..kta ga tau kpn kita ktemu lagi...mungkin taon depan... ato the next...ato mungkin ga bkal ktmu lagi...Jadi sblm terlabat gw cm mo ngucapin makasih buat smua...thanks bwat bantuannya slma disini..gw pun ga tau kpn gw akan balik ke indo...
pokoknya apapun yg terjadi nanti..you guys are still my friends...selamanya...

2005-07-05T08:48:00.000+10:00

....................

hari Jumat kmaren gw udah apply visa..dan DITERIMA !!!!!!!!
ckckckck.....gw bnar2 tak nyangka...gw benar2 akan pergi...
nterview berjalan dengan sangat lancar...gw ga ditanyain macem2..cm ditanya:
Where ru going to?
>> Seattle
What School?
>>Green River
Have u ever been to America b4?
>>yup
When?
>>1995
What u were doin?
>>Holiday
OK, Good luck

HUahahhahahaha penting bgt yah?? mana yg interview gw cakep lagi...wakakakkaka....depan gw tmen 1 les..ditanyain macem2...passportnya dibalikin....suru balik lagi..huhahaha...tgl 7 julee gw ngambil visa neh.....

ehhh..gw baru baca ramalan gw hr ini..um...

The way you two met was magical. They know it and you know it. Just about everything that's happened since also seems to have carried that lovely, magical tone, too. So today, when one or both of you suddenly feel the touch of the green-eyed monster, don't you dare let that endanger what you've got. A little bit of jealousy -- a very, very little bit -- can be a compliment. It means you love someone enough to value them. A lot means you're insecure. Know where to draw the line.

huahahhahahhahahaha....no comment dahh...

oh iye.gw turut berduka cita atas meninggalnya Luther Vandross Sabtu kmaren di NJ krn stroke...smoga diterima di sisiNya...
gw lg dengarin Dance with My Father neh..hixhix...sedinya....

gw ga tau gw hrs ngomong pa lagi...gw hanya bisa bersyukur...atas semua yg udah Dia berikan ke gw...my family, friends, Jay....
Id never make it thru without you around hun...love you...

2005-06-23T23:52:00.000+10:00

Ck...CK....Udah Brp Lama gw MenghilanG dR duNia Blog?!?!?!?!

PHew....been sooooooooooooooo DAMN Busy.....exams, live in ( believe me it sucked ), rekoleksi live in, an i got my report on june 17....it means...im outta that school...gonna miss my frenz heapss.....not gonna talk bout my report...kinda disappointing..not very good an not bad either...so-so lah...i no couldve done way much better....ok enough bout that...

well its june 23 now...2 more months to go...im goin on sept 10, an im gonna stay overnite in Sing..and we'll be heading to Seattle on sept 11...
i'm gonna have to stay in a hotel for 2 or 3 nights in Seattle..The campus corner opens on sept 13, 2 days before the orientation....
im a bit afraid of the orientation...im gonna meet loads of different ppl from all over da world..excited but kind of nervous...u all know what i mean...well, lets see the brightside...im gonna have loads of friends..which is good to me...
im takin the EAP course this holiday...sux i know...but i enjoy it..i've got some nu friends an theyre good...one of my teachers is a canadian...he kinda reminds me bout Jim ( have i told you bout him?? )...and the other one is a British girl called Melanie...shes nice...

Im workin on my assignment...have to present a presentation bout a city..an i chose ROME....Its a very lovely city...no longer than 7 mins...thats fucked up...oh well just let it go...

hey..its gettin late...im goin to bed...need to get some sleep..oh yeah..oone thing...need you guys to give me a testi...u know self improvement an such things...
so i'm waiting...see yaa...nite...

2005-05-28T22:31:00.000+10:00

HooooRAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AKHIRNYA AKU BEBASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-04-23T15:11:00.000+10:00

so it's 12:15 pm, im stting nicely here in my room...thinking bout bout whats my life's gonna be...i'm tired of pepole keeps bugging me bout what i should do an tells me whats right for me...
I have my own way to show people who i am...ive just learned to enjoy my life..i love my life...i have a great family, a gorgeous boyfriend, great friends..it's like living in a dream...i'm so damn happy, i know i say this all the time but i mea nit. even if this all stopped yesterday, i'd still feel like the luckiest girl alive...u know i dreamed bot this all day everyday, an i gotta say it feels like i thought it would. My goals may have changed. I used to daydream bout me in the future, how i used to imaginesomeday i'd be a rich young and famous girl.
I laugh about it now but back then i was kinda too serious.
I'll admit its not about being famous or making millions of dollars anymore, I used to daydream bout it but i have sorta seen how it all works, and i dont wanna be a depressed-young-but-rich girl, i juz wanna be me and i want to do anything i want to, i wanna be good to my friends , i want to take care of my family.
That's real to me, an i know this may sounds a lil bit lame but i want to live happily with someone i love...an i realize i have to learn on my own and im still learning, i've made my share of mistakes, ive done some chesy stuff, but its good to look back an laugh at how young we were...
And i realize, i am what i am and no one can change that. I think ive done alot of growing up since i got together wif Jay..I love him i love my family, i love my friends...That's the on ly thing i have, thats prob the only thing i ever will have...i just feel lucky...so thank you for makin this real.....

Hey....I'M goin thiS SepTemBer...

2005-04-19T00:57:00.000+10:00

yeah...i'm really going to the states...this september..just few days b4 my 17th bdae... :'(...so sad....but its ok...i'll make a farewell party instead.....i've made up my mind bout the school, i'll tell you more bout it later, but it's a nice school i believe, its located in Auburn just, like, 30 mins from Seattle, and the atmosphere is good. well ive never been there before but, Mr. Leo who went there said it was reallly nice....oh..we'll see...
Still got like 5 months to go....uhmm....it's not a long time....it's already 18th of April....uhmm...
i'm so excited..never felt this good before...
Aduh..tak sabar lageeeeee......

2005-04-07T15:37:00.000+10:00

"Breakaway"

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

**menggambarkan perasaan gw saat ini.......

2005-04-07T15:29:00.002+10:00

KalO SemUanya lAnCAr.....Gw BERangkAt TAon INi....

YUp....KeputuSAN fiNal Gw....gw tau ini keputusan yang BesAr...BgT....gw udah memikirkan ini dari jau2 hari..dan gw sudah memutuskan...gw bukannya menghindari ga naek klas, gw yakin 100% gw pasti naek...knp gw mmutuskan pegi taon ini, ada alesan tersendiri, gw ga bisa critain sekarang...tapi pasti suatu hari gw ceritain....

gw cm mo bilang makasih ma temen2 gw, thanks for everything....thanks for the great memories.....gw ga akan melupakan kalian smua....I'll see You Again GuyS....LX will Always love you.....

2005-04-07T15:29:00.001+10:00

2005-04-01T00:45:00.000+10:00

i dunno wut i should do.....

g br pulang liat presentasi north seattle, ada kejadian yg bisa dibilang....mukjizat...mungkin ini udah jalan Tuhan kali yah...im not gonna talk bout it rte now....what i wanna tllk about now...
uhmmm...im prob going this year...take the high school completion program, an get my bachelor d. in 4 years, mempercepat 1 taon...nyok g udah setuju, ga 100% sih....tpi 90% aj ada.....
jujur g ga siap buat ninggalin smua yg ad disini, my friends ( seriously, you guys are my saviours....), tapi g punya alasan yg kuat, yg ga bisa gw critain sekerang, mungkin nanti...someday..i'll tell you...promise....an it's not bf...seriously.

g ga ta harus ngmong ap lagi.....well, yeah, klo uda pasti 100% g kabarin deh.....

2005-03-24T10:33:00.000+11:00

huEyyy....laGI liBUr Negh.....

yupz, libur paskah nie....senang......minggu depan g mo pulang kampung, mo nengokin makam kakek gw....trussssss...kmrn gw ke aminef...liat2 katalog..trus tiba2 gw ada ide gila negh....GW PENGEN MASuK Yale University.....hohohoooohoohoho.....klo bisa kenapa ngggak? maslah dana sih...biarlah, gw usahain ndiri..slalu ad beasiswa kan?? walopun gw hrs jungkir balik, jalan pake pala, gw belain de...demi bu demi....soalnya jujur gw aga males ke Cali byk anak indo yg ga jelas...coba klo di Yale ad brp anak indonya? bisa diitung pake jari, or malahan ga ada kali.
klo uda lulus dr sono mah jaminan dah....
aduh imma so excited....
oiya bulan des ntar my sistah mo pulang ma tmen2nya yg dr cina, macedonia ma kosovo ituh.....trus rencananya kita mo ke singapur rame2....aseeekkkkk....

2005-03-16T00:27:00.000+11:00

HuEE...MakiNg FriENdS feelS GooD.....

iya ney..hr ini gw dpt tmen baru, Jeff, anak Canada..huhheheeeee.....caucasian...anak kuliahan, krja part time jd DJ..geezz.....so kewl....lumayan bae..bisa membuat gw ngakak...
punya tmen byk itu sgt menyenangkan....apalgi klo dr berbagia negara....bisa membuka wawasan dan jaln pikiran lo tuh...jd ga stuck di indo....
an im thinkin bout goin to boston...uhmm..mo msk boston college...tpi ga lah..BC ga ad ap2nya dibanding UC berkeley....o jlas uni negeri no.1...hehehe..cita2 gw tinggi juga yah...bodo ah..
aduh aku senang..perbaikan limit gw paling tinggi looh..mayan 8,33..kikikik...gembel2 gini bisa jg ul plg tinggi....huehehhehehhhehehehehheheh.....rata2 mat buDe gw skrg uda 7 lebi..lumayan lah naekinnya ga tlalu susah, trus, ul polinom yg k2 yg gw 6,25 perbaikan..hhooorrayyyy, target... 8/9..ga mo tau....
ko gw jd ngotot gni yah? gapapa de..asal jgn ambisius aj...kyk slh1 ank dikals gw yg sgt amt menyebalkan...pinter ...tpi keterlaluan..gw ga tahan ma ank kyk gtu pgn gw tonjok....
bodo ah...

2005-03-08T15:10:00.000+11:00

HOaalllllaaaaa.......aku lg di skul nie...TI as usual...bengong....BOSANNN...gw lg dengerin my chemical romance....keren sekali..i love this song....aduh..ga sabar nie..pengen cepet lulus dan brgkt....hr mingggu kmrn gw ke ef expo ad green river tru sdie presentasi..pas bagian living cost...di abilang tergantung..klo misalnya anaknya telpon2an ma pacarnya di nido ya mahal....wakakakakaak...gw mo ngakak....ye..yg ad laki gw disono....buahahhhahahahah...tenang aj..mgkn mala lebi murah..hohoho...

yah..doa ajalah.......hope everything's gonna be just alrite....

2005-03-07T22:30:00.000+11:00

OuCH..i'm ReaLLy GoiN to SEattLe neXt Year.....

huhmm...hrskh gw senang ato sedih? seneng....pasti....tpi jujur gw ad sdikit kekhawatiran....u know..bout J...we're ok..nothings wrong...tpi gw takut.....klo kita deket mala jd sering brantem....gw ga tau..muna klo gw bilang gw ga takut...well, Just pray....Im prayin..im scared thou....ya biarlah Tuhan yg memberi jalan...

eiya..td di kul...phewww.... kinda exhaustin..capek..tpi td gw dibagi ul bude, gw dipanggil urutan ke 6 loh..hohohhoho.....pdhl gw ga yakin bgt ma ul gw yg itu....hehhe..LUCkY Me....
trus, gw lg sebel..biasa...ma org indo...duh...THey'Re REallY PiSSINg me OFF...knp si..jd org nyebelin bgt?!?!?!? ga abis pikir de...nyebelin lah...pengen gw tendang2 in atu-atu....
GW SUDAH SANGAT AMAT TIDAK TAHAN...I CAN'T STAND IT NEMORE.....THEY'RE NOTHIN BUT A**HOLES....
shf eiurfgiuerhf rigfecgruf 4rgufgjrhijefgujdgvgeurvg....geez....what r their brain made of?? CHICKENSHIT or WHAT?!?

They're such the pain in the a**.....

2005-03-05T23:57:00.000+11:00

huEHooo......aKhiRNya WEEkeND jg..duh..gw uda mo mampus, dr senen ampe jumat FULL...Sampai Sabtu aj..gw blm bs istirahat dengan tenang...td gw abis liat pameran US di Shangri-La...ga makna...yg dtg cm uni2 yg ga terkenal..duh...ga lah ya...gw si ga tertarik..maxud gw...ngapain jau2 kesono klo cm buat kuliah di tempat yg kaga jelas, cm menang lulusan Amrik doang...males ah..tp masi byk org yg berpikir kyk gtu..yg penting bs pegi ke Amrik, lulus..kaga jelas dah lulus dr mana....gw sih males, harga diri gw tidak mengijinkan itu.. gw akui gw mang sombong...jauh2 pegi harus menghasilkan hasil yg bgs donk...lulus dr uni yg lumayan, ya paling ga top 30 ato 50 lah...jgn asal kuliah...lulusan luar negeri...klo gw pny perusahaan si.. gw akan menerima org2 yg lulus dr uni kaga jelas, walopun die lulusan Amrik...dipertanyakan aj...
gw uda ngobrol lg ma Tony, dia bilang gw lebi bae mask college dulu, jd lo labi punya byk pilihan...make sense..ya liat aj ntar...pa gw ke minnesotta aj y? hoho...tenang2 tman gw tersebar di seluruh penjuru Amrik..hohohoohoho...mereka baik2 smua....mrk bantuin cr info..hummm...
i owe them so much...udah dulu yah..tomorrow is sunday..i need ta get some sleep...im so damn tired..untung gw ga ikut LDK..pheww, klo ikut, gw bisa gila mampus dah....badan gw kayak mo rontok smua...geez...untuk mgg depan libur 3 ari..lumayan bgt tuw...
o iya..gw lupa bilang gw hoki berat nie akhir2 ini...ul buDe gw yg jelek2 perbaikan smua, giliran gw dpt bgus die ga ngasi perbaikan...adnya remed..huehehe....LUCkY ME....
udah ah..mo bobo..gud nite...sweet dreams...

2005-03-01T14:53:00.000+11:00

HuaLooo.....aku rindu blog ku...huehhehe...sibuk2...
gw lg di skul nie.. pel TI as usual...bengong..ntar siang gw wawancara OSIS ney...doain ye..biar sukses..bnernya gw ga niat bgt..isenk aj...like what i said..JUST WaNNA LIvE My LIFE....ya jd gtu de....uhm..
duh...gw pengen cepet2 lulus nie....bosen bgt...si J kyknya daftar di Uni Washington ma Michigan ma Ohio jg...ga tau de tu anak ga jelas...klo sampe dia ke Michigan ato Ohio...gw ke Seattle percuma dunk?? huhehhe...ga juga se...kan gw masi bisa pindah..lagian ntar gw jg bkl pindah ke CA, ato NJ kli ye...ga tau de...yg bgs aj..yg penting 1 negara di daratan yg sama....bisa sms dan telpon...cba klo di sini...hhuu..yah...liat aj lah ntar gmn...gw cm menginginkan yg terbaik buat die...
duh..gw lg kekurangan lgu bgs nie...bosen....udah ye..gw mo ngelanjutin TI dulu...CiAo!!!!

2005-02-20T14:56:00.000+11:00

wakakaka.....its unbelieveable......

iya jd bgnni critanya, kmrn gw ma nyook gw ke pameran pendidikan gtu de...trus kta nanya di bag US, ad standnya Seattle Central Community College...ad 2 org tu de...yg satu indo yg satu bule..selama nyok gw ngbrol ma yg indo gw dijak ngobrol ma si bule.. namnya Mrs. Dorothy, shes really nice....di nanya gw gtu...what do you do for fun..an lalallalala....trus gw bilang " i wish icould get into UC Berkeley..." itu tujuan utama gw ke Amrik...trus di bilang "Thats great.." dan lalalalala.....duh jd malu....;) setiap kli gw bilang ke tmen2 gw yg org indo,, theyre like " you gotta be kidding.."an give me a funny look, like im crazy or what....MANGNYA KENAPA SEH!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! ADA YG ANEH ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? gw sebel aj kesannya mereka kyk ngeremehin gw, menghina gw...cih.....nyebelin... mind your own business....gw tau mang nilai2 gw kurang meyakinkan....gw sadar sesadar2nya, i could have done zillions times better..gw tau ko kemampuan otak gw sebenernya nyampe mana, mungkin ad bbrp org laen yg juga tau, tp ad jg yg ga tau.....ya sud lah...biarlah mereka berpikir senek jidatnya...gw akui gw mang males...tp bukan berarti otak gw ga jalan kan?????? tau ga knp gw bs jd org yg sangat amat santai???? karena waktu sd gw ga belajar sama sekali pun masi bisa rengking 2, mau ga mau otk gw terprogram spt itu, ga belajar gw masih bisa dapt bagus...makanya sekarang gw blajarnya jd 1/2 niat, pdhal waktu di smp nilai gw ancur seancurnya, tapi tetep loh...gw bukannya gw ga mo ngubah kebiasaan gw...setiap kli gw mau, tiba2 ad aj ulangan yg ga gw blajarin bisa dapet bagus, 10 pernh malah, mat sma klas 2 ipa lgee....yah gmn yah???
mungkin mulai skrg gw hrs mulai nubah kebiasaan jelek gw itu...gw lagi berusaha ney....selalu bikin pr...setiap ul belajar yg bner niatnya hrs 100%..
gw lakukan itu buakn buat ap2, tapi buat gw ndiri , buat cita2 berkeley gw...buat org2 yg gw sayang..g pgn bikin nyokap gw bangga..mgkn ga sekarang....gw lagi nyimpen energi..bgtu gw masuk kuliah....gw akan bikin kejutan.....Im not afraid of anything..really....gw capek dianggap anak bego pdhal nggak sama sekali ngga.....liat aj...dan alesan terakhir gw.....
GW PENGEN BALES DENDAM MA ORG2 YG SUDAH MENGHINA GW, BIAR MEREKA MENARIK KEMBALI UCAPAN2 NEGATIF TTG GW....
bodo ah...gw klo uda niat bakal gw bela2in ampe mampus, walopun itu berarti gw harus jalan pake pala...
tp selama gw idup 16 taon br sekali ini gw punya niat yg sgtu gedenya.....serius.....hmm...ya suw...yg penting usaha dan berdoa....gw yakin Tuhan pasti bantu gw.....

oiya...masa tu bule bilang inggris gw bagus.....wakakakakakakakkakakaa....gw dibilang natural speaker......hihaiaiahiahihaihaihaihaaihaiaihahaiahiahiahi.....oh im flattered...... :P..trus gw nanya lokasi SCCC itu deket ma tacoma ga? dia bilang cm 1 jm..trus dia nanya.. yaou have a friend in Tacoma?? wakakkakakakaka...YES..BEST FRIEND, BOYFRIEND...tp gw ga bilang...gw cuma bilang "yeah, american...." trus di a crita klo ad bbrp anak indo yg complain its hard to make friends with american....huahahahahhahahahahahhah gw ampir ngakak....hueee.. gw bilang jg ap ga smua org bisa nyambung ma american, dan biasanay org yg nyambung ma dia org ga nyambung ma org indo.....iya lah...krn pd dasarnya org amrik ga nyambung ma org indo...
huhahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahah..........bgs de..itu bisa membuka jln pikiran lo...si mrs.d aj bilang gitu.....oh tentu saja.......
GW BENCI BGT MA INDONESIA...ga smua seh....gw tetep syang ma tmen2 gw dan org2 yg deket ma gw, yg ad sekeliling gw....yg laen??? go to h***!!!!
udah ah...gw cape..ngomongin org indo mah kga ad abisnya....

2005-02-18T22:34:00.000+11:00

...BloG-KU,,,, aKU RinDu PAdAmU!!!!!!.....

kangen nie..ud lama ga ngepost..huehehhhe...pdhl ol tyap ari..tp tgnnya ga nyampe2...mang dasar dudul.....
idup gw akhir2 ini fine2 aj..nothin special....J-ku lg sibuk mo masuk uni...jdnya jarang ngobrol. trus ktnya dia ga jd mask medical, takut ga kuat..ah mang tu anak dudul...trus ktnya mo msk dentistry aj..tp klo dentistry mesti ngambil bachelor of life science dulu 2 taon trus br dentistry 3 taon..ditotal 5 taon...ga mau tu anaknya..ktnya kelamaan, iyalah gw jg ga mau.....jdny kyknya dia mo ngambil electrical engineering ato biochemistry...ya suw lah..biarlah dia memilih yg terbaik..gw cm bsa mendoakan....
udah ah mo bobo ngantuk.......

2005-02-06T13:42:00.000+11:00

...Lagu Fav Gw..( PaRT II)

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams
It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

( HIlary Duff, Someone's Watching Over Me)

2005-02-01T15:40:00.000+11:00

aDokHh.....gw BoseN Bgt....

ei gw seneng aj...hoki gw lg bagus nie...cuit2....ul polinom gw yg ancur g dimasukkin..ul perbaikan..huehehehhehehehe......senangnya!!!
trus akhir2 ini gw lg deket ma someone....well....that Tony guy.....gw ga tau gw seneng aj ngobrol ma dia....kita sama2 nymbung.....dia juga di US...klo dia ini murni gw temukan on the net....anaknya bae bgt..uda lulus S1 business administrasion di minnesotta....dia juga bule..bukan org indo....trus gw cerita ttg dilema gw skul ke sono..dia bilang ga susah ko..trus dia jg mo bantuin cr info ttg skul gw itu..anaknya bae aj....single..hohoohoho......ngga lah..gw masi setia ma laki gw...gw sayang bgt ma dia..i like tony..hes a nice guy...tpi ga se---- dbanding Jay lah...

gw ma Jay ga ktmu di chatting ko...serius...dia perna ke indo...desember 2003...dia itu tmen sodara gw yg ud jd wn sono...gw dikenalin...arghhh.. i remember when he winked at me...geez...that cute face....tp waktu itu gw masi kabal..gw ga ngerasa ap2....stlah dia pulang...kitajd sering chatting...makin lama mkn deket....dan berlanjut ampe sekarang.....weve known each other for a year..but it doesnt feel like it...kita kayaknya uda kenal be taon2....kita bisa nyabung ngomongin ap pun..selera sama....dia nanya ma gw..lgu fav gw akhir2 ini ap..trus gw bilang the used yg all that ive got....u know what??? dia juga klg denmen bgt ma lagu itu....hehehhehe....hes my twin...wakakakkakakaka....trus dia juga dmn ma def leppard... simple plan..yah pokoke kita ud kyk anak kembar aj....

2005-01-21T23:32:00.000+11:00

...beRikuT adl potongan2 lagu yg gw demen.....( Part I )

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words
your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

(Unwritten, Natasha Bedingfield)

2005-01-21T23:03:00.000+11:00

hei....gw baru berpikir....

uhMM...mungkin kata2 gw di post gw sblm ini aga keras...sorry...gw ga maksud gmn2....tapi itulah yg gw rasakan...seperti yg gw bilang..klo gw udah benci ma sesorang/ sesuatu...gw bisa jadi orang paling sadis....

Gw ndiri ga tau knp bisa bgtu...tp itulah gw....gw bisa bae...tapi gw jg bisa jd jahat...tergantung ma sapa yg gw adepin lah...slama ini org menganggap gw benci ma INdo krn apa yg telah org Indo lakukan pada gw..tp..klo lo udah baca yg tadi..mungkin lo ga bisa ngmong/kommen apa pun lagi...krn mau ga mau lo hrs mengakui klo bangsa Indonesia mang kae gtu....mungkin lo blm ngalamin.....gw emang br 16 taon..tp gw udah tau lebi byk dr org2 yg mgkn jau lebi tau dr gw....

itulah yg membuat gw spt ini....byk hal2 d idlm idup yg lo blm tau....ato blm sadar...coba lo buka mata..liat ke sekeliling lo..liat org yg lebi maju...lo akan bisa membedakan mana yg bner dan mn yg sala...trust me...gw udah ngalamin...gw bersama dgn org yg berbeda bgt....u know..beda bangsa...beda adat...beda budaya.... itu byk membantu gw...untuk bisa ngeliat mana yg sbenernya bener...mungkin ga bner juga sih..mgkn mang sifat gw ga cocok ma sifat org indo kali yee....gw merasa lebi nyambung ma org luar....yah lo hrs bisa buka mata & pikiran lah...jgn mengaggap bangsa lu yg paling bagus...

Ya itulah sala satu sifat yg gw benci dr org Indo..mrk slalu nganggep dirinya yg paling bner...pdhal mereka sbnernya ga tau ap2....
Mungkin lo berpikir gw org yg sombong...yah ok...gw akui...gw mang orgnya sombong....

Jujur...dr kecil gw slalu dikelilingin ma org2 yg menuntut gw utk begini begitu....sampe sekarang pun masih....kadang gw kesel...tp kadang gw bersyukur juga....gw tumbuh jadi manusia yg bner2 kuat ngadepin segala sesuatu dan realistis....dan punya prinsip....gw harus begini begitu....
uhmm....gw wktu kecil cukup dimanjain...tp gw klo salah juga diomelin..abis2an lah pokoknya....
dan mgkn gw termasuk org yg beruntung yah.....bukannya pamer.....gw umur 3 taon udah nginjek singapur...istilahnya bole dibilang gw udah mengelilingi 1/4 dunia....
Singapur, Thailand, HongKong, Amerika, Aussie, Malaysia, Filipin, Jerman, Italy....1 negara lagi genep 10 tu...yah bersyukur lah ma Tuhan...gw jadi liat dunia luar...dan di tambah dgn ceramah2 nyokap gw....jujur....gw terdorong untuk maju...mencari kehidupan yg lebih baik...gw pengen ngebahagianin org2 yg gw sayang..gw liat org diluar..oh mrk bisa maju tu krn begini begitu...y mempengaruhi gw juga lah lama2....jd jgn salahin gw klo gw merasa ga cocok dgn sifat bangsa Indonesia......

Tapi gw juga jd bingung....ad org yg udah pegi keliling dunia melebihi gw lah istilahnya....tapi ga terdorong untuk maju....wakakakakkaa....ya sudah lah..urusan mereka....
mungkin ad org2 yg menganggap gw ga realistis...mimpi gw ketinggian...gw tau mimpi gw mang tinggi....BANGET...tp gw yakin ko..klo gw mau usaha dan berdoa trus.....gw pasti berhasil....realistis perlu...tp bukan berarti lo ga boleh punya mimpi....klo lo berpikir " yah ga mgkn lah gw bisa begini begitu....realisistis aj.." itu berarti lo males...lo ga punya keinginan utk maju..ga mau usaha....slmanya idup lo ga akan perna berubah....

Gw yakin klo lo punya mimpi dn lo mau usaha dan berdoa ma Tuhan...gw yakin mimpi lo bakal kesampean....

2005-01-17T19:30:00.001+11:00

..Gue Malu meNyanDang StatUs Sbg WarGa nEgarA IndonEsiA...

Kenapa?? Karena satu dan banyak hal..gw benci bgt ma negara gw ini....bukan Karena apa yg telah mareka perbuat tapi karena sifat2 manusianya....

Males, ga tau diri, ga tau terima kasih, fanatik, MUNAFIK BGT....

Contoh :

1. Males...

Ga pernah mau usaha sendiri...dikit2 minta sumbangan...banjir 30 cm minta sumbangan..mang lu kira org nyari duit kaya lu tinggal minta doang...cih...mang org indo mental pengemis...

2.Ga tau terima kAsih...

Orang mau ngebantuin di Aceh..tentara asing dan bantuan asing hrs keluar dlm 3 bulan.....brangsek bgt sih lo...mang lu klo ga ad dia org bisa ngerjain ndiri???...bangsa lu kan ga bisa ap2...selaen minta...mengadahkan telapak tangan....org dia mo bantuin...knp mesti ngusir??? mang ga tau terima kasih...

3. Ga tau Diri...

contoh hampir sama spt si atas....cth simpel d....di jalan ad org minta jalan mo nyebrang...uda dikasi jalan..bukannya jalan cepetan..org kan juga mo pake jalan...malah jalan santaii....cekikikan ga jelas...urghhhh...pengen bgt gw tabrak..biar mampus skalian....jalan umum,, woiii!!!! bukan jalan nene moyang lu...

Trus pembokat....uda dikasi enak..masi aj nyolong...brengsek bgt...

4.MUnafik

Mereka menghujat Amerika, Austarlia....trus sekarang giliran lagi susah gini..yg nyumbang byk sapa coba?? klo mang lu ga suka ma mereka ga usah diterima sumbangannya....jgn giliran lgi dikasih aj bae..mulut manis..udahannya..ya udah...brengseknya keluar lagi...inilah yg paling gw benci dr org indo.....

5. FAnatik..

ga org pribumi, keturunan ..ga ad bedanya...knp sih mrk hrs slalu mempermasalahakn perbedaan??? Ras, Agama, Suku....cobalah menghargai org sedikit...di Amrik,,rasnya juga yk,, agama macem2..tapi ga kayak di indotu...mereka fine2 aj....mang org indo brengsek...

Seee???? Itulah yg membuat gw benci bgt ma Indo....gw pengen bgt melepaskan kewarganegaraan Indonesia gw SECEPATNYA !!!!!!! kyk sodara gw Eva, Reggie, dan keluarganya...mrk bilang nrk lebi seneng di luar...ya iyalah..ato kk-nya sasa yg br aj dilantik sbg Wn Aussie...Enak bgt.....

ato plg nggak keluar dr Indo...

Tp klo lo berpikir gw skola keluar cm buat melarikan diri....emang itu salah satu alesan gw.,..TAPI BUKAN YG UTAMA....

gw pengen skola keluar..bukan cuma asal jd lulusan luar negeri..gw punya target....gw pengen lulus dr UC Berkeley ato Princeton ato Georgetown.....gw pengen ngambil major BIOMEDICAL ENGINEERING yg ga ad di negara gw yg primitif ini.....

KLo lo berpikir gw skola keluar cuma buat "asal" sekolah keluar....1 pesen gw...

" GO AWAY AN DO YOUR OWN THING !!! " PEGI AJ SONO JAUH2 DR GW...gw ga butuh org2 kyk lo.....

Sekarang gw udah ga peduli lg org2 mo nganggep gw ap..ga pny nasionalisme ke...gw ga peduli..I wOnT GIVE A ShIT.....

Gw juga udah berusaha nahan..tapi kesabaran juga da batasnya...dan gw udah mencapai batas maksimal gw....gw udah ga sanggup nahan smuanya....

2005-01-17T19:30:00.000+11:00

.....God never gives you more than u can handle......

Hehhee..tu kalimat favorit gw saat ini...setiap gw baca kalimat itu..rasanya tenang bgt....
abisnya ul2 gw akhir2 ini lagi gagal....hix...ya suw lah..life goes on...

Mo diapain lagi....yah bales dendam ntar d abis sportissimmo...bodo..smua ul gwbikin 10 smua....hahahaha....gw sebel...
udah ah cape tha2

2005-01-13T19:34:00.000+11:00

hueyy....long time no see....maap lagi sibuk2 nya ney... ngeles..blom lagi gw jad panitia catur sportissmmo....besok gw mo ke ps...trus sore ngeles...sabtu ad technical meeting..trus partynya mandy...uhhhhmmmm....sibuk2...

ya suw...gw bosen bgt skul...pengen cepet lulus...gw makin lama makin eneg ma my0" beloved" country..

an o iya..akhirnya kemungkinan gw ke amrik smakin besar.. meningkat sekitar 12 % dr 76% menjadi 88%....hooray...tdnya yok bilang gw suru kuliah disini dulu..trus s2 br ke sono..oh no....cant wait that long....trus gw bilang d...klo major yg mo gw ambil ga ad di indo..biomedical engineering....coba ad dmn tu? ya sud akhirnya nyok setuju....hooray....

tp sekarang gw malah jd bingung mo di kota mana...tdnya mo di seattle kan biar deket..+duh...plis donk...i know he loves you..+ tp disono uni yg ad biomed-nya krg bgs...nyok gw monya lgsng masuk uni ga usah ke college dulu..yah gampanglah...can handle it...gw kan ga goblok...huehhee...maap ketularan narsista ney...hihihhihihihi.....
yg pasti si gw ga mau ketempat yg byk org indonya...
males aj...

oiya si J perna crita ttg ank2 indo di kampusnya dia....ktnya pd nggrobol ndiri2..krg bisa mbaur...udah gtu aneh2..
jd pengen ktawa...
jd gini ceritanya...ad cewe yg ngajak dia knlan...lewat kyk frendster gtu d...tp buat community kampus doank...pdhl si j ga knal..perna liat si..tp ga gtu tau..ktnya tu cewe di aperna ngobrol ma J tapi J-nya lupa nyebut nama..++duh..dia gtu lho...++ tp j bilang dia ga inget mukanya..he said to me.."should i care?" wakkakakkaa...ni anak mang TOP bgt..mirip bgt ma gw...trus ktnya tu ce
dia inget J trus J ada di kelas chem n physicsnya gt jam 10-12 di gedung blablabla.. serem ga sih lo? segitunya..ktnya dis tau ce-nya J org indo..tp dia ga tau klo gw di Indo....dia pikir ce-nya ad di US juga...wakakkakakakkaa....
udah gtu yg bikin j males klo org indo tuh..suka ngegossip...yah gw akui gw juga suka tp lama2 males...ga ad kerjaan kali ye...

dasar org2 indo kae kentut.. knapa yah org indo hrs slalu kumpul ma org indo.. geez.. gue suka diversity donk ;) hohoho... ngapain jg uda jauh skul keA mrik akhirnya kumpul ma org indo jg hahaha males deh ah.. begitu mah di indo jg banyak.. neways.. gue jd ngelantur hahah....

2005-01-07T02:19:00.000+11:00

oh got...im so frustrated...

its already 10:30 pm..cant even close my eyes..well, got a lot in my head..
Jay, my friends, school work,..oh...im so tired..
well, to be honest, my trip to europe wasnt that good..lil' disappointed...
i dunno..maybe..bcoz of that guy or its just me who had 'too-high' expectations...
it didnt turn out like i wanted it to be...missed alot of things that i wished to see..like Netherland or Belgium or France..
well, at least i got to see my fave Italy, it was really cool...I mean , look at that fab Fontana di Trevi, its definitely a kick-ass fountain..and i threw money in the trevi Fountain which apparently guarantees you'll be back there some day..hope its true..
Im thinkin bout Jay now...we talked this afternoon.. when i told him bout my plan...he was like "oh god..finally.."..i dun really understand what he meant...
but..hmm..i take it as a good thing..;)
sumtimes, life's un believable..i mean..never imagined i would have jay in my life..coz i know...when i tell people bout me havin him, a American boy, they just dunno what to say..coz maybe they juz cant believe it..(..neither can i..until now..really..)
My mum keeps askin me if i really want to go to America to continue my study..well the answer of that question is obviuos..YES..ive made up my mind..and theres no turning back..
She still wants me to go Netherland or Germany or Singapore...NO..NO...
When i was in Germany, i didnt like it..not at all...Singapore is fine but..i wanna try something new...im getting sick of Sing..and those crappy languages..
Netheland..the same as germany....
Aussie...?? its fine but i dunno she wont let me go there...dunno the reason..
well, guess im gonna get some sleep now...or i wont be able to open my eyes tomorrow..god....

2005-01-06T22:33:00.000+11:00

oks...lanjut....
kmrn sampe mn yah??

ow..see..

Hari Ke8
hr ini gw balik ke jerman, naek pesawat malem jam 10...jd paginya kita jalan dolo...ke Trevi lagi...lempar koin..duh....TRus belanja di Via Del Corso..kaya jalan yg penuh ma toko2 gtu de..trus sempet ke the Famous Via Condotti...berhbung isinya designer smua...oh got...jdnya gw ga bli ap2...

Hri ke9
Kita br nyampe di jerman jam 1/2 3 pagi..jdnya hr itu gw tidur ampe jam 1/2 1..bangun, mandi dan jalan2 di sekitar situ de...

Hari 10
Ga kemana-mana..still..ngider2 di Mannheim...sore jam 3-an kita ke Heidelberg..tadinya mo ke istana itu..tp krn uda sore jdnya ga jd..

Hr 11
Hari terakhir belanja...NY's eve...malem taon baru.. sore2 kita kerumah sodara gw...makan malem, trus ntn The Day After Tomorrow mentang2 lg ad tsunami..huehhee..selese jam 1/2 11 mlm..trus akhirnya ngabisin waktu malah maen uno....hehehe...trus jam 12 krg 15 jalan ke sungai Rhein...ntn pesta kembang ap..sumpa keren bgt...

Hr 12
Taon Baru...br bgn jam 2 siang..hehhe..trus keluar cr makan..ternyata ad restoran cina yg buka...trus krn bosen kita jd ntn di Cineplex, ntn Das Phantom Der Oper....the Phantom of tHe Opera...tp di dubbing..jdnya gw ga ngerti ap2...goblok beradz..tp bagus ko...

Hr 13
Hr ini gw diajak makan ma sodara gw di restoran khas jerman gtu d..makan daging2an..ad daging rusa segala loh..tdnya gw mo makan itu..tp biar aman...daging sapi aj de..enak de....
Sore pulang..beres2..besoknya gw hrs pulang..hix hix...tp akhirnya gw bisa ngobrol ma jay lagi..hohoho...

Hr 14
PULANG!!!! hixhix..this is the end of my wonderful journey......

Nah begtulah kisah perjalanan gw...capek...but i had a blast....sumpah...
trus..kahir kta gw ingin mengucapkan terima kasih buat nyokap gw, my sista, tmen2 nci gw di sana, sodara gw, org2 yg sudah mempantu gw, my tour guide in Italy, Daniella; Chiara & Malisa; Arton & Clarissa; the Internet Guy yg memberikan gw kartu Internet gratis.., tukang tas di Italy yg sgt tampan, tukang es krim di Italy..(sumph gelatonya enak bgt..pisa kafe kalah tu..), Oma yg punya restoran di Italy (oh god...lasagna-nya enak bgt..), The American Family yg brgkt ke itali dan pulang dr itali brg kita, org jepang yg sgt lucu yg membuat kami terbahak-bahak ngeliat tampangnya, pramugara Ryan Air yg bernama Damien (oh, hes so cuteee....), Anthony & kawan2, Nadia tmen ngobrol gw dipesawat dr KL - FRankfurt, Oom Jacobs yg dudk disblah gw slm perjalanan dr frankfurt -kuala lumpur,..Omar penjaga warnet di mannheim, co tampan yg ternyata gay yg gw temui di resto china( wakkakaka), oma penjaga toko stationery dengan gaya ngomongnya yg membuat gw tertawa samapi gila....dan masi byk yg ga bisa gw sebut 1 per 1....

Thank you so much for the Great memories !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Unforgetable in everyway.....

2005-01-04T20:41:00.001+11:00

HOi..Hoi....gw pengen CeritA bout my WonDerful journEY....
Knp WonDerful?? Krn Byk Kejadian Yg ga gw sangka sebelumnya...sampe tadi pgi gw transit di Malay...ada aj.....

Dan itu Smua ad hUbuNgannyA dengan bule2 ganteng...arghhhh.....oh got......

Hari Pertama
Gw Brangkat tgl 21 malem, transit di malay....nah jadi..pas di soekarno-Hatta..pas gw mo masuk ruang tunggunya...ad sekumpulan bule yg terdiri dr 2 ce dan 2 co...dan salah satu co itu bernama Anthony....**o..Got..**
Ya klo mo mendengar kisah lengkapnya silakan hubungi gw secara pribadi....
Di Malay, pas mo turun pesawat...got some troubles dgn bawaan gw...yg bisa dibilang kebanyakan...thanks 2 my sis de...dan...oh..got..mr. Anthony itu membatu gw...oh...dan bunga2 cinta **ow..fu--** aga bersemi....but,...like what i said before..hes shorter than me..males bgt....wakkakaka....
ya sudah bis itu...gw tidak bertemu lagi dengannya...

Hari Kedua
Gw sampe di bandara Frankfurt Main..gw dijemput ma sodara gw da istrinya..berhubung my sis masi skola...jd gw nongkrong dulu di rumah sodara gw itu...nyampe2 uda dijamu makan..yum...trus uda gtu gw disuru tidur...dan terlelaplah gw...ampe skitar jam 1 gw bangun...dan ga lama kemudian...my sis dateng....ya udah abis gtu...kita keluar...mampir ke kantor pos, ngeposin kartu natal **bwat J, loh..**...dan kita bergerak menuju apartemen kk gw..yg hanya berjarak 15 menit perjalanan dengan mobil...udah nyampe..sodara gw langsung balik..gw ma nci gw nyate2 di kamar..nungguin tmennya..org kosovo..cowo..namanya Mehdi..kesan pertama lumayan bae....kesan terakhir..baca di bagian bawah post ini...
Trus kita keluar makan..bertemu kembali dengan tman2 yg lain..org albania smua...namanya Neji dan Nami..trus satu lagi gw ga tau sapa.. well, should i care??
dan berakhirlah hr itu.....

Hari Ketiga
Hari ini nci gw masi skola, jdnya gw bengong diruma ampe jam 12 siang..trus nci gw balik bawa temen baenya org macedonia cewe..namanya Behare..untung dia bisa ngmng Inggris.....anaknya bae..dan ramah...gw ditrakrir orangensaft loh..hihihi....ya ud trus kita jalan2 b3...gw blom blanja ap2....ampe sore..

Hari Keempat
Xmas eve..toko2 cuma buka ampe jam 2 siang..jd kita berburu supermarket beli makanan..soalnya takut ga punya makanan..krn hr minggu toko2 tutp smua...

Hari Kelima
NATaL.....
pagi ke GEREJA...Ga gtu terasa suasananya..krn gw ga ngerti ap yg diomongin..mana isinya nene2 smua lagi....
Siangnya kita ke tempat tmen nci gw..org indo...tinggal ma tantenya yg nikah ma org jerman...kita diajak makan...trus kerumahnya...trus..ga tau kenapa...ngeliat keluarga itu tuker2an kado....had this strange feeling inside my tummy....dan tak terasa..mata gw uda beraer...untung blom jatoh...ketika gw ngeliat nci gw...jengjeng...dia merasakan hal yg sama...matanya juga beraer..hix..hix....
Trus pulang dr situ kita ke rumah sodara gw...berhubung sodara gw ma istrinya ga ad..yg ad cuma adenya doang yg masi kuliah..kita jadi makan rame2..trus pulang...

Hari Keenam
hari ini kita berangkat ke itali...malem..nyampe di Itali jam 12 malem..ke hotel tiduur...

Hari ketujuh
Kita tur keliling kota Roma...mulai dr trevi ampe Colloseum..dr pagi ampe malem...pas kita dtg trevinya lg dibersihin..jd ga bisa ngelempar koin...akhirnya kami memutuskan untuk kemabli pada esok hari...duh sgtu niatnya ngelempar koin...Kita juga dapet kenalan baru...psangan muda..**uhh...** naanya Arton dan Clarissa..English...ada fotonya di handycam gw...

Ok...di-cut dulu ya...gw capek..huamm...besok skul...gw masi jetlag....oh got...

2005-01-04T20:41:00.000+11:00

I'M BaCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-02T03:07:00.001+11:00

JuST ReAliSed....SuMtHIn....

gw tiba2 meyadari..ad sesuatu...yg sbnernya ga penting...tp entah mengapa...it bugs me....
gw baru menyadari bahwa slma in gw dibutakan...oleh sesuatu yg sendiri ga tau ap itu...tpi gw sadar bahwa ap yg gw anggep baik slama ini....bullshit doang....it's absolutely nothing.....
gw menyadari semakin egoisnya orang2 di sekitar gw...not to mention org2 yg gw benci....
gw ga ngerti..ato mungkin emang gwnya aj yang terlalu sensitif...tapi klo gw liat lagi...dia emang egois...everybodys changed...menurut gw....based on what i see..an feel...ga smua si..ad lah bbrp...ga perlu gw sebut...yg merasa aj....

Dan gw bgtu bodohnya.....mepercayai orang itu......arghhhhh....dan orang yg slama in gw anggep ga ad..malah jadi org yg penting buat gw....
ahhh....suds la..ga usa terlalu dipikirin...gw cuma pengen menyampaikan isi kepala gw sekrang...

J, dont ever change, i love you for who you are...
J whos really proud of his ****..[cant say that...wakakkakakakkakaka], J who likes bein stubborn...., J who olweiz says "everythigs gonna be just fine..", J who doesnt care bout what other people says..[*that what makes me like you..*], an most of all...J whos olweiz there for me when i need him....

2005-01-02T03:07:00.000+11:00

Welcome 2005 !!!!!!!!!!

duh..ga terasa bgt sekarang udah taon 2005...ga percaya...so many things were left unsaid...taon 2004...akhhhh....bermakna bgt tu....byk kejadian yg berarti dalam hidup gw..termasuk Jay...huehehhhee..
Hari senen gw balik ke Indo....HOrEee...i miss my comp, my dog, my friends....tapi gw seneng bgt di sini.....smua yg gw suka ad di sni....termasuk bule2 cakep...huehehehehhehe...**inget...ad J loh...** i know....cuma buat winter fling doank ko....ööööööö......lucu de.....mang ad ya winter fling`??? ad de.....ääääüüüü
tau ah...gw uda kacau..g bosn di sini klo uda hr minggu...toko2 pd tutp smua....mo mati ga seh...mana di apt ga ad tv ma komp...jdnya basi bgt....sekarang gw di warnet nie....1 jam €2,00...yah..gpp de....abise gw bosen bgt..

kmr nm alem gw ngeliat pesta kembang api..kren bgt...wish he was here with me...klo dia ad disini..lengkaplah seluruh kebahagiaan gw...

duh..ko gw jd melankolis gini seh?? ga penting de....apapun yg terjadi taon ini...gw harap itu berArti dalam hidup gw.....

J...thx 4 bein a part of my life....thx 4 bein my sunshine after the rain....

Duh...

2004-12-29T02:26:00.000+11:00

hoii...sekrang gw lagi di itali nie..akhirnya mimpi g nginjekitali kesampean juga.....kmren gw jalan2 ke Trevi, colloseum, St.peters basillica...wehheee...it was really cool....td gw juga ke trevi lagi..nglempar koin....duh,,pentin yah....penting donk...biar bsa balk lagi...td ge make a wishjuga...gw bilang...semoga gw bsa balk ke sini lagi with Jay...duh...never thought love would feel like this...ga tau knp..selamag gwdi sini jugagw ngrasin berkat Tuhan..gw ditolong banyak orang...banyak de...gw juga jd kenal byk oran...duh..ntargw lanjutin lag d..klo gw udnyampe di jerman...di sini aga mahal juga...gwlg di termini..stsiunnya eurostar....ArRghhhh....so kool....coba klo jay ad di sini....

2004-12-25T01:01:00.000+11:00

Here I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

halo..gw uda ad di jerman sekarang lagi di warnet...huwaaaaaaa...gw kangen ma semuanya.....hihixxxx...i like it here thou....ahhhh...keyboardnya aga aneh nie.....mampus......gw kangen bgt ma jay...uda lama ga ngobrol...
gw pengen cerita nie..jd critanya gw transit di malay...pas gw mo turun ngambil brang...tas gw aga jato gtu de..trus gw ditolongin ma bule..namanya anthony....temennya si manggil dia gitu...arghhhh...hes deadly gorgeous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cakep bgt sayangnya lebi pendek dr gw....hahahha....gini2 gw masi tau diri cr cowo yg lebi baek dr gw...i mean lebi tinggi lebi pinter....lebi cakep...hueeee..........
anyways....besok natal nie...gw ga kemana2 paling ke gereja..trus tgl 26 gw brgkt ke Italy.....HOREEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gw kmrn uda belanja..ga banyak si...
udah dulu ya..gw mo chat ma Vane nie..kangen.......

2004-12-21T17:50:00.000+11:00

HORRRAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Akhirnya dalam wkt 4 1/2 jam gw meninggalkan Indonesia !!!!
Duh...tp gw takut juga ne...setelah sekian lam ga menempuh perjalanan panjang.....
15 jem jo....duh..gmn gw ga stress coba...
tp bayangkanlah klo udsa di sana......YEEPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.......
Nikmatnya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EUphoria Lgee....td gw terima Rapot....Lumayan Lo....
KOmpetenn......what did i say???? Hmm...feeling gw bnner......80 % tebakan gw bner...
heheheh....

Ah yA suw.....gw mo mandi nie....skrg uda jam 2...1 jam lg gw brangkat k airport, nyampe jam 4 checkin segalam macem ampe jam 5..jam 6 boarding...
6:30 BERANGKAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gw transit di Malaysia....lumayan gw kan blom perna ke malaysia....walopun cm di airportnya....HOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

SEENAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tenang aj..Oleh2 akan selalu ad....
O iya.... Merry Xmas & Happy Nu Year (again!!!)

Wishing you a happy heart, holiday hugs and heavenly peace!!!!

GBU...LX LOvES YA ALL......Ingat Itu.....

Muaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!
O iya jgn lupa isi tagnya yah???

MUACHCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tha2!! Have A Nice HoliDay!!!!!!

2004-12-21T08:47:00.000+11:00

ToDay is The dAy...Get PrepAreD....

Aduhh...trima rapot nie....ko gw mendadak jd tegang yah???
Tapi Feeling gw bagus ko....bukan raptnya yg bagus feeling gw...duh...
*duh..jgn neGatiV thiNking donk...Ga SehAt Loh...

AH sudalah..gw sedang mem bayangkan dalam 24 jam...gw lagi dipesawat..ah..menunggu detik2 pendaratan di negeri impian..ga detik2 juga se..klo sekarang jam 5..brarti 6 jam lagi...jadi...30 jam lagi gw uda ga ad di Indo....
HOORAYYY!!!!!!!!!!

DUH....EuPhoRiA lAgeee...tau ga knno gw ol jam 5 pagi..gw lg chat ma Jay nie..detik2 trakhir..ntar sore pasti gw uda ga bisa chat lagi...uda sibuk..hixhix....
Im gonna miss ya all....huahhaha..ko gw jadi sedi..si....toh gw bakal balik lagi...

i'll be back on jan 4th..
sabar2...dun miss me yah....hehhe..
sering2 lah buka blog gw..krn pasti gw update...

Udah ah...gw mo mandi ud jam 5.15 ney...ntar telat lagi,....
Horreee terima rapot....
udah ah...
tha2

hEyy...i reaLly CanT wAit..!!!

2004-12-20T21:42:00.000+11:00

hEyy...i reaLly CanT wAit..!!!

duh,, ga sabar nie...
tapi tetep aj....ad rapot dulu..
ah tapi..gw uda ga ngerasa pa2 lagi...
udah lewat si..

Ahh bodo ah..yg penting.....3 hari lagi gw uda ga ad di Indo !!!! hoorayyy!!!!!!!!!
akhirnya.....gila gw serasa merdeka bgt bisa kabur dr indo walopun cuma 2 minggu....
nikmat bgt dah ah......HOORAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gw uDah Euphoria ne.....
udah ah..gw masi mo Ngerjain cd....buat dibawa besok..

Oiya...taon in igw ga kirim kartu natal..males...SMS aj lah..hooo~~~

ya suw...Merry Xmas Happy nu Year lgi....

Thanks for everything an sorry for everything wrong ive ever done..

LX Loves ya all...esp you, J....

All my bAgs R PAckED

2004-12-20T01:02:00.000+11:00

All mY bAgS R PAcKed..Im reAdy tO GO.....

2 HAri lAgee....
Hix..tp sedi nie...bakal ngga ngobrol ma Jay..hix hixhix....He'll be the one i miss the most..hixhix..
sabar aj de..di sono kan juga ad warnet..tp jamnya aga susa...
ah..udah ah ..gw mo ngerjain sumthin dulu nie..penting bgt...

Merry Christmas an Happy nu Year...GBU...olweiz....

TiGa Hari LagI...[...damn,, cant wait ANy LonGer...]

2004-12-18T20:31:00.000+11:00

TigA HaRi lAgi....Cant WaiT Any LoNgER.....

OMG....Its GettIng CloSer...no, not rapot i mean.....My TrIP !!
HooREAy......SeNanknYa.....Ahh..suDahLah...
Sabar...Sabar...
Sudah..Mo pEgi Tha2...

4 dayS To gO..[ HP baru !!!]

2004-12-17T23:40:00.000+11:00

HOree.....4 hari lagi...
I'm so excited.....senenk de...
kmrn gw pulang nyampe rumah jam 9 malem......hahaha...bli Hp.trus ke gajah Mada Plaza beliin makanan anjing gw....capek..but FuN..hehehe..trutama krn gw dapet hp baru....huehehehehhe..
Akhirnya kesampean juga gw ganti skin..dr dulu mang ud ad niat...tapi..males...
ya suw lah..
udah ah..mo bobo...ngantuk...
tha2....

6 MoRE DaYs to Go.....

2004-12-16T01:12:00.000+11:00

hualoww.....
6 hr lg loh.....senanknya...uda gtu rencanaynya hr sabtu anti gw mo nonton Alexander di Ps...hoi...Alexander loh..huehehhehe....[ GJ bgt....] wakakaka...ya suw lah...
bsk pulsek gw mo ke Roxy neh..mo bli HP..hhohhoo....
Senanknya...tp gw males bgt nie skul...ga da kerjaan yg jelas gtu d...jdnya gw ke skul aga nganggur...kecuali OR..td gw maen voli 4 set non-stop.....capek...tapi asik bgt uda lama ga maen volee...huehhe..
e, tau ga sih..masa tu anak hr ini ujian terakhir dan besok uda LIBUR!!! adokh..pengen bgt gw...
masuk2 lgi Feb, buat tes masuk uni...apa maret yah?? tau dah..Gj juga tu anak...dudul....

Arghhh...aku sebal..besok dia mo pulang ke Tacoma...ke tempat nyoknya..bae juga tu anak...
ah..biarlh..
Besok jam1-2 kyknya lanjutin presentasi...hOre...ga ad KN..doain aj smoga pulang cepet....
hixhixhixhix...
td aj rapat Serviam gw kabur..huhhh...
bodo ah..im so tired of skewl....

Mungkin gw bneran gila y???
ah bodo ah...

WYWH, jay....

TujuH hARi LaGee.......

2004-12-14T20:22:00.000+11:00

7 Hari lAgi....menuju ngeri impian....HOoo~~~ SenankNya...
Tp SebelumnYa RapOt.....TeTeup....Tp makin Lama gw smakin YaKin..... HOo~~
Ga tAu..Feeling Gw Aga Gut gtu de....
heheheh.....yah suw la ya....

guys, i wanna say thank you for everything....lx loves ya all....gw senank bgt bs punya tmen kyk kalian....
2 Chistie an Jason...Thanks for bein such supportive friends....
Hoo~~....Biarlah...
dunno... what to say...si JAy lg away tu..ah dudul..tu anak....
eh...masa emak gw nawarin gw ganti HP loh....duh...ya masa gw tolak...hehhehe...bego donk klo gw tolak..
ga tau nie..mala bingung gw jdnya...mo ganti apaan? N6670 ok juga tu....
tpoi ga tau liat ntar lah...kemahalan kyknya...klo ga ya 7610..monya si P910i....duank...ga lah...7 juta mah mending gw pk jalan2....
belanja-belanji....masagw dibeliin tas billabong loh..jarang bgt mak gw..heheh konteksnya si buat gw pegi liburan..ho~~ tp kan lumyan..Billabong gtu loh....
hr ini gw di skul bengong total......ga da guru gtu de...
males bgt....
mendingan libur....
udah ah...mo caw....tha2...

RamALan.....benEr GA yA??

2004-12-11T18:46:00.001+11:00

td gw isenk nyoba2 ngeramal...ttg hub gw ma u know who....eh..jdnya bgini....tp ga tau de..bisa bner bisa sala...tp agak mirip ko...heheh...silakan dibaca....

There are many different ways to communicate and the two of you seem to be on the same wavelength most of the time. In other words, your partner understands and responds well to your style and method of reasoning, thinking and expressing your thoughts and feelings. You can make yourselves understood the first time, without rehashing and reiterating endlessly. Of course, you won't agree on everything all of the time, but coming to agreement on issues important to you or perceiving what the other wants to communicate will be easier. Your styles of intelligence are also similar and your preferences for mental stimulation could be the same. You are likely interested in many of the same subjects or enjoy learning together. In fact, one the best features of your relationship is that you can say about each other, "You understand me, you really understand me. I can tell you anything." You can talk for hours and never get bored. There's simply a natural connection which will make the rest of your lives together -- and your inevitable challenges -- that much easier. Because, when you put your heads together, you're more likely to arrive at a solution you can both live with than either of you could separately.

Huahhahah...no comment de...

EvEryTiMe.....

2004-12-11T18:19:00.000+11:00

We talked bout our lives
until the sun came up
and now i'm thinkin bout
how i wish i could go back
just for one more day
one more day with you

Everytime i see your face
Everytime i hear your name
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right

Jay, r you reading this? Need you here....how long do we have to wait? a year? dunno....
feel like cryin....thanks for everything, thanks for bein there for me...thanks for bein my sunshine after the rain....i Love you..more than u ever thought....

Wish yOu were Really HeRE...

=..::LX::.=

BeTter.....

2004-12-10T23:32:00.000+11:00

huahhahahah......
seneng bgt gw.... akhirnya minggu ini berlalu juga...1 minggu lagi loh...terima rapot...cabut....tha2.........senangnya!!!!!!!
gw udah punya bayangan rapot gw bakal kyk ap....yah not very good, i know...but not too bad..kompeten lah..hoo~~ pede bgt yah gw?? bodo ah...
gw tau ap yg udah gw raih sejauh ini ga lain dan ga bukan adalah krn berkat Tuhan dan kerja keras...
gw lgi demn bgt dengerin cd-nya simple plan..keren2 lagunya....jujur bgt...
ad satu lg kren bgt judulnya untitled....br mem perhatikan...baca baik2

I open my eyes

I try to see but

I’m blinded by the white light

I can’t remember how

I can’t remember why

I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain

And I can’t make it go away

No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on

As I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I’m slipping off the edge

I’m hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can’t explain what happened

And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done

No I can’t

Keren aj..kreatif bgt..keren...demen dah gw ma org2 kyk mereka..jujur bgt....

knp orang sono hebat yah? maksud gw mrk ga takut ngadepin idup...bg mereka hidup itu bgtu..ya mereka jalanin aj....dalam menghadapi hidup...gw salut bgt ma jaln pikiran mereka...mungkinjuga itu yg membuat org sono lebi maju....dunno lah....

beda bgt ma disini..ga tau..gw ngerasa beda aj....huhmmm...dunno...

yah biarin lah....setiap org punya jalan hidup masing2, terserah lo mo percaya ma yg mana....

thats life....

oiya..selma 3 hr ini gw dpt pelatian " Problems Solving" jujur...buat gue ga gtu guna...

ga tu..

gw ngerasa ga dapet ap2...ya ada sih..tp ga begtu berguna...

basi bgt... ato mungkin gw aj yg badak???

dont care lah....jalanin aj segala sesuatu sebagaimana mestinya.....hidup itu buat dijalanin..bukan disesali...nikmatilah hidup ini termasuk masalah yg kta hadapi di dalamya...life's a game...

buat gw...some people might think im crazy..but thats the way i am...gw seneng ko..hidup gw so far lancar2 aj...cukup baik malah....thank God....gw bersyukur bgt..taon 2004 trmsuk tahun yg baik buat gw..yah emang si ad bbrp impian gw taon ini yg ga terwujud..tujuan utama gw malah kyknya ga kesampean....but sometimes...its the journey not the destiny....sampai akhir aon ini gw blm mendapat ap yg gw inginkan....tapi..i had a blast along the way..i gotta hang-out with friends, make some new ones..pokonya taon ini T-O-P bgt dah.....

ntar g review d...

thats for today..thanks 4 everything guys...LX loves ya....

WiSh u weRE herE, JAy..and tHanks 4 everything u've GiVEn...i (L) U...

=..::LX::..=

MeSSEd uP....

2004-12-09T03:28:00.000+11:00

KACAU!!!!!!!!
mAsa gw uda cape2 nungguin download attachment berjam2 gabisa dibuka....
gw lagi sebel nie....ive been kinda messed up lately..ga tau..sbel aj...
tiba2 gw pengen jd org yg cuek bgt..dalam arti kt...menghargai pendapat org lain yg beda.....
InTINYa, gw ga peduli org mo ngomong ap...yg penting gw jalanin prinsip gw sendiri..stick to where i stand....i won't give a shit.....huahahahahhahahahhaa...........
mungkin gw uda gila.....im getting sick of some bitchy girls at skool..u-know-who..perhaps you dont...well, who cares??

All I wanna do now is....Study, study, an nothin but study.....we'll ive turned out to be a studyholic..ad ga ya??..bodo ah...gw pengen lulus........
im so tired of skool.....
ga penting....
libur....here i come!!!
whiTe christmas.....HEre i come!!!

well....EuRope......I'm Coming!!

Huahhahahaahahha....gw stress bgt dah...
ah sudah lah....Tha2

WiSh u were HerE, Jay.....

=..::LX::..=

I'm ThiNKIng.....AbouT SoMetHIng....

2004-12-06T01:01:00.000+11:00

huAlo......
AkHirnya....gw Berhasil mendapatkan..cd terbarunya SImpLe PLan.....SumPah KereN aBis!!!
uhmm..dan ad lagu yg gw suka bgt...judulnya perfect world...ada2 kalimat yg bikin gw aga....uhmm..i dunno..psyched....maybe....

i used to think that i was strong

until the day it all went wrong...

life's un predictable emang..i know...we might think we're cool or sumthin like that..but...
pasti ad suatu saat dimana...sesuatu ga berjalan sesuai dengan keinginan lo.....that's life...
what i'm trying to say is....jangan sombong..lo ga tau apa yg akan terjadi sama diri lo....
jalanin aj dengan biasa....i mean..sepinter appun elo...jangan pernah ngeremehin yg namnya pelajaran.....well, it has happened to me zillions times....tp sekarang gw sadar utk mendapatkan sesuatu lo butuh pengorbanan...tergantung dr diri lo , lo siap ato ngga buat berkorban....
Klo lo udah usaha, gw yakin lo pasti bisa...asal lo ga lupa berdoa ama Tuhan...gw yakin Dia pasti nolong lo....trust me...
gw perna nanya ma Jay one day, " i f you were given one do-over, anythin in your life, what would it be?"
J : " Nothing"
Me : " But did you ever make a big mistake? or a huge one that could change your life?"
J : " I know ive made a lot of mistake, but i dont regret making any of them. because, if i hadn't have made them, i would have never learned how to make things right..."

JeGerRRRRR...........petir di siang bolong jo....
ya sekarang lo pikirkan de.... gw mo off tha22......

WiSh U weRe HerE, Jay......

=..::LX::..=

JeRmAN Bikin PuSiNk !!!!!

2004-12-03T22:29:00.000+11:00

AdOkh.....gw PuSink nie.... mikirin tugas jerman yg ga tahan....mampus....
g ga nGeBayangIn dah...gw sekola di sono...bisa mampus blajar bahasanya gw...ga jelas bgt...
Gw ga Tau mo nulis ap di sini...
feeLs like i've totally completely lost mind......ga tau..ge bner2 ga bisa mikir..
gw pengen bgt liburan.....bosen gw disini..basi aj...statis....
gw pengen cepet2 lulus bneran de.....sumpa mati....gw ga tahan bgt....
ko ad ya org yg sampe ga naek klas segala?? i mean..ko ga bhosen2nya skola sih??? i dont get it..
kan mendingn skalian blajar yg bner naek klas..cepet2 lulus...cari duit..hehehhe
Susah sih emank...gw ga ngerti sama the way of thinkingnya dia orang.....malah ad yg bilang..ga naek klas sih biasa....OMG!!! ko bisa2nya ad orang yg berpikir seperti itu?!!??!
Damn...somebody should take her to the detox....huehehhe...cuci otak....
gw lagi cari gbr buat powerpoint nie...setan bgt tu..ngasi tugas mepet bgt...cape dagh....
uhmm..aku lagi bingung nie..menyangkut kelanjutan hidup gw selepas sma...gw ga tau mo lanjut kemana sumpah...amrik..ga tau...im not sure....jerman?? big no no....mampuz bljar bahasa.....aussie?? ah kbnykan org indo....males....singapur?hmm..dunno...ga yakin....
yah..liat ntar aj lah...
i had a long talk wit u know who yesterday....he said "if u have a dream..you must go for it.."
but...hello?!?!? im not sure at all...its like everyone keeps bugging me..." why wont you go to germany? your sis's there.." except my mum...i have my own decision..and shes cool with it....
the problem is...everyone seems to think i have to do whatever my sis did....at first, i didnt mind bout that...but now..hello....i'm human..i dont think i have to do something what i dont feel like doing....but i dunno..its drivin me nuts...wish i could fly.....mungkin gw mang orangnya teralu gmn yah.....i know im a lil' picky, but i just know what i want....sepertii yg gw bilang di post gw bbrp hr yg lalu...gw tau pasti ap yg mau gua raih di dalam hidup gw....eventhough it sounds a lil bit too much....
ya suds lah..biar lah segala sesuatu berjalan sebagaimana mestinya..just let it go with the flow......

WiSh U werE here, JAy......

Lx yg lgi strEssed oUt,,

=..::LX::..=

MuSeUm AnAtoMi..[...sama skali tak menarik....]

2004-12-02T20:45:00.001+11:00

HUAAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Akhirnya....hr ini berlalu juga...bosan bgt....cape...gw brasa gw ga dapet ap2....ya iyalah..gw ga mo masuk kedokteran....pusink iya....

Tau ah..gw aj bingung..ko ad ya org yg mo masuk kedokteran...ngorek2 isi perut org...yiek...ngebayangin aj gw uda mo muntah...eneg.......

Tapi..ya suw..org pny jalan hidup masing2....

Gw pusink nie..blom bikin tugas jerman..jujur..gw males bgt blajar Jerman..ga ad enak2nya....

basi....mending blajar inggris..gtu..lebi kepake aj...gw udah pasti ga ke Jerman sie...

maknya uda ga niat...mana gurunya rese lge...adokh.........

ei..tau ga gw skrg lg chat ma Jay...gw berhasil dapet alamtnya dia loh...HOHOHOHO....tenyata dia tinggal di Tacoma...Hmm...nice....

duh..ga sabar ni pengen liat rapot....penasaran aj...

ya suw..sabar aj.....

udah dulu yah..gw mo melanjutkan pembicaraan dengan dgn Jay...tha2

Wish U were HeRE Jay......

=..::LX::..=

LiFe's UnpreDicTabLe......[...SeMogA ia DiterImA di sisiNya...]

2004-11-30T17:56:00.000+11:00

when i was on my way to school today , somedody told me that my father died ......

really dunno what to do....should i cry? should i be happy?...dunno...i can't even cry !!

its just a few drops..and..thats it!! this is what makes me more desperate than ever......

All I can do now is pray....i'm not goin to his funeral coz i know...would hate him again....dont wanna hate anyone...but if i remember what he did....dunno....i dont even feel anything right now.....

If I said..life's unpredictable....thats true....i just never thought this could be happening to me...i knew somehow this would happen....but i didnt think it'd be like this....its only 4 years since he left...then now..he's really gone....

Yah, gw tau bgmpun juga dia tetp bapak gw..gw hargai itu..tapi..gw bner2 ga tau....gue ga siap buat ngadepin semuanya....dan gue sudah memaafkan dia...i mean it...bener...

Klo gw ga dateng ngeliat dia..bukan karena gw benci sama dia..tapi krn gw ga siap...gw janji suatu saat kalo gw lulus....gw akan datengin makamnya dia...gw mau ngucapin terima kasih...atas semua yg udah dia berikan ke gw..entah itu ada apa nggak...dont care....karena dia juga gw sekarang bisa ada di dunia ini..bisa ngerasain indahnya dunia..walopun dia juga yg ngebuat gw jadi ga percaya sama orang...tapi dengan adnya dia..gw jd belajar banyak...tentang segalanya...bout the real life....

gw cuma bisa ngedoain supaya dia tenang di alam sana....semoga dia di terima sisiNya...

i dont hate you..i just cant believe you could do that to me an everyone.....you're forgiven anyway....enjoy your nu life.....

Tuhan.. thanks for everything you've given me....my family, my best friends, Jay... everything....

WiSh yOu Were heRe JAy....( i really do..)

=..::LX::..=

AKhiRNyA....SeleSE JugA ulUm...YiPPeee!!!

2004-11-29T23:44:00.000+11:00

HuAhAHAHAHAHHAHa................
Akhirnya.....BeBas juga gw...fuffufufu~~~..ThaNk GoD aTas BerKAtNYa SElAmA UlUm Ini....
wouLd NeVer mAKe iT WitHout HIM....Thank You GoD, JeSuS ChRiSt My sAviour.....!!!!
ei..gw terinspirasi nulis sesuatu nie....puisi..dhuer..setelah gw berpikir2, menimbang2,......
Jadilah karya gw yg pertama..buhahahahha.....in english...
Terinspirasi dr org2 yg masi StResS memikirkan ulangan umumnya yg ga begitu 'berhasil'....
gw JugA ko..JUJUR....cuma..yah...gw bisa berdamai aj dgn stress gw....well, there r only a few people who knows how to deal with it....and i cant say its easy...it takes time....
Jadi..belajarlah untuk berdamai......
Selamat menikmati......

ReAch for YouR GoALS

Life's not meant to be easy,

Life is sometimes tough,

People can put you down,

Till You've nearly had enough.

But just be yourself,

And hold your head high,

and know that eventually,

You'll soar above the sky.

Life doesn't have any limits,

so set your goals high,

Soon you will get that far,

And even if you miss,

You'll be among the stars !!

Dedicated to : salah seorang sahabat gw yg sedang mencoba berdamai dengan stressnya...jangan pernah menyerah...Just think That eveything's gonna be just fine !!!

huehehe menurut lo gmn?? kasi kommen dunkz...
yah pokoknya...whats done is done.....
dan satu pesen gw.....

" Everything happens for a reason, so there's no such thing as 'fail' "

WisH u were Jay.....

HuGs n KiSseS,

=..::LX::..=

2 hari SeBeLum HarI TerAkhiR Ul.Um...Hri PembeBasAN !!!!!!

2004-11-28T11:41:00.000+11:00

AkhIrNya Nyampe Juga...phew....gw uDa mO mATi nIe...besOk Ul QmiA ma inGrris.....Qmia si LumaYAn lAh....TinGgAl LAtIan AJa....InggRiS yA....LumayAn tiNggal Baca CatetaN.....
uhm...sebelum gw mo minta maap krn udah ngepost 2 post yg sama..yah it was an accident...ya suw lah yah....
ULangn gw yg kemaren bisa dikatakan Lumayan Sukses....not for shOwing off...tapi ya..sebanding lah ma pengorbanan gw...dibilang bisa bgt nggak juga...tapi at least ga merah lah...masih mantesin....
Tau ga seh...masa Jay bilang gw orangnya perfectionist...uhm...menuRut lo gMn? buKannya perfectionist sih..tapi...kalo bisa dapet yg bagus knp hrs ngambil yg jelek?? itu prinsip gw...
sama aj yah??? yah gtu de....i kNow Im lil' Picky..but hey, i just know what i want...
ya suw la.....treck doeng.....udah ah cape....bingung mo nulis ap...ehehehhehe
thatha.....CiAo!!

Wish u were here JAy....

lalalalalalala,

=..::LX::..=

A daY beFoRe UL.uM...CAn'T wAiT!!!

2004-11-23T20:20:00.000+11:00

HOre !!!!!!!!
AkhirNya Besok Ulum...senangnya..heheh...Gw Gila yah??
Eh.. MaSa Tadi pas gw oNline di Yahoo msg..ada ank FiliPin ngajakin Gw KenaLan...males BGT !!! BukannYa Gmn2...Tapi ngObrolNya Ga jelas Gitu D...iNggriSnya KAcaU lagee..kan Gw jadi nggak ngerti.....
ANyways....Gue gIla jUga yAH..Besok UluM mAsi Sempet OL...Bodo ah.. aBise Gmn? hR terAkhir gw megang Kompie..Besok Udah Ga bisa..Ampe hr Slasa Depan....Hix..I'm gonna miss yOu Jay!! Gw SeleSe uLum dia ujiAn..hix hix... Ya tABah AJ de...Ini seMua juga DemI kita be2...
Udah Ah..bentar lg gw mo Ngeles Math....dOain Yah biar ULum Gw SukSes..biar gw bisa LIburAn TAnpa BEBan...

Wish U Were hEre Jay..

Love,

=..::LX::..=

BInGuNg...

2004-11-21T10:31:00.000+11:00

ehm....gw bingung stlah membaca komen seseorang...gw ngerti maksudnya....
but...deep inside...gw sadar sepenuhnya kalo tempat gw bukan disini...gw ga tahan ma orang indo..dan segala sesuatu yg di indo.... gw tau indo yg mem buat gw jd seperi sekarang ini...gw juga tau trima kasih...suatu saat gw akan melakukan sesuatu buat indo...tpi sebelumnya....gw minta maap..krn gw merasa gw ga cocok bgt di sini...gw tau semua orang bilang gw ga boleh benci ma bokap gw biar bgmnpun dia tetep bokap gw.....gw ga benci...jujur....tp gw mang ga bisa ngelupain apa yg udah dia perbuat ke nyokap gw...dan ke gw...selama gw idup 13 taon ma dia, sepanjang ingatan gw dia nggap pernah ngurus gw....semuanya yg ngelakonin nyokap gw...disuruh nganter jemput aj yg namnay pengangguran marah2...gw sakit ati bgt dah..udah gitu pas lagi ngurusin urusan pengadilan dia minta harta dibagi 2..cih..pdahl semuannya yg nyari nyokpa gw...nyokap gw bilang itu juga buat skolah gw...dia ngerampok brp ratus juta dr nyokap gw? buat ngurusin pengadilan aj nyokap gw mesti sampe kabur dr rumah 6 bulan..gw ma nci gw ditinggalin ma pembantu dan tante gw....gw ga marah..gw ngerti..krn klo nyokap gw ga pegi dr rumah urusannya ga bakal selese ampe hr ini...gw ga bisa nyalahin nyokap....gw ngrti...bahkan gw inget bgt dia pernah nggebukin nyokap gw pas gw klas 6 sd pas gw lagi ujian...maunya dia apa sih?!?!?! duit dikasih....kerja nggak pernah...pas bagi harta juga dia dapet rumah stu ma duit 150 juta..tu rumah aj udah berharga 200 juta lebih malah...blom lg dia nggondolin tv dan segala macem....ditotal2 lebih dr 1 M kali...gr2 itu juga sekarang enci gw ga bisa skolah ke amrik...semua gra2 dia.....gw juga...semuanya gara2 dia...di surat bgi harta juga ditulis...setelah pisah dia nggak bertanggung jawab atas biaya idup dn sekolah gw ma enci gw...bapak model apaan tuh?!?!?!?...jangan salahin gw klo gw ga nganggep dia bapak gw...bapak namanya doang....
JUJUR....gw ga benci sama dia....tp gw ga bisa memaafkan dia...makanya gw critain semuanya lngkap...krn selama ini gw cuma crita permukaannya doang..makanya orang2 masi bilang bgtu..
makanya ketika gw ketemu jay dan tau dia memiliki kisah hidup yg sama..gw seneng bgt akhirnya da orang yg bner2 ngerti..krn bokapnya dia juga sama brengseknya...

gw pengen ngasih satu lagu nie..kt2nya keren bgt...ni lagu soundtracknya What a girl Wants...jadul gitu..tp keren bgt

Wishing on a shooting star
But dreams alone won't get you far
Can’t deny your feelings anymore
The world is waiting right outside your door
What are you waiting for?
Come on, here’s your chance
Don’t let it slip right through your hands
Are you ready for the ride of your life?
Your dreams are riding on the wind
Just reach out and pull them in and
Get ready for the ride of your life
The ride of your life
In your heart, you know what must do
You've only got yourself to answer to
Don’t let fear of fallen hold you down
Your spirit's flying high above the clouds
You're glory bound

You are on your way no looking back
There’s no future living in the pastYou’re free at last yeah
You’re free at last

WiSh U were herE JAy,

=..::LX::..=

Hey people !!

2004-11-20T11:29:00.000+11:00

so..its already saturday....hm.....HOREEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
gw pengen skola nie....bosen bgt gw liburan ga ad kerjaan.....pembantu gw brengsek lagi..ga jelaz balik kapan.....HUH!!
tapi gw seneng...bentar lagi ULUM.......ehehehehhe brarti bentar lagi LIBUR!!!!
Cepetan de...gw bosen bgt......gw pengen cepet2 lulus......bosen bgt gw di indo...
uhm...bout..my dream....well, gw pengen ngelanjutin kuliah ke US....setelah menimbang-nimbang.. gw lebi prefer ke sana drpd Jerman....
pertama, Sekolah di sana lebi cepet 3,5 taon uda lulus....
Kedua, gw ga perlu blajar bahasa lagi...palingan ambil toefl....ga gtu ribet lah..dibanding gw hrs blajar bahasa yg gw sama skali buta.....
ketiga, gw bisa deket ma Jay..walopun ga satu state..lumayan lah....hehehehhehe
Sebenernya tiga hal itulah yg membuat gw pengen ke sana....but....
yg gw takutkan adalah...dana......ada sih...cukup....tapi....klo ada sesuatu di luar dugaan takutnya ga cukup.....
Oleh karena itu...gw berpikir untuk nyari beasiswa....katanya klo ke amrik ga gtu susah.nilai rapot ga guna gtu....yg penting nilai ujian lo..ama toefl dan sat..trus kaykanya si..lo mesti bikin essay gitu de...in english....ya...gampang lah...sejak gw punya guru inggris privat..huehehuheuhehee...u know who...gw sendiri blom bilang ama orang yg bersangkutan....krn blom pasti..
tapi walopun gw ga dapet....gw akan tetep pegi kesana ko...nyokap udah setuju..
uhmmm......tapi....klo gw ke amrik gw ga tau mo ngambil jurusan ap...palingan klo ga teknik kimia..ato....biomedical..bagian ngurusin mesin2 kedokteran gtu de...kyknya asik tu....
hehehehe...sebenernya yg asik bukan kerjanya tapi duitnya.....heheheheh....
All i can do for now is.....somethin i should have done long time ago...blajar yg bner..dapet nilai bagus....cepetan lulus.....
cita2 gw mang tinggi....mang harus gtu...klo ga kesampean kan palingan ga jeblok2 bgt...sedeng lah..klo ga tinggi....ga kesampean.. jadi ampas dah gw....ngerti ga? ngga? ya udah....=p...
anyways....i owe him 5 bucks...yuk....jd critanya kita taruhan gw de..ttg football..cih..ternyata dia menang..hiks...jd ntar gw kesana gw hrs byar dia $5..that sux..heheheh..tp gpp juga seh...udah ah gw pegel....lgian gw ga tau lagi mo nulis ap....ntar de..klo ad sesuatu yg bru gw kabarin (?) lgi....
thanks for everything yah.....U guys Rock!!!!!!!!! lx loves ya all...bner.........
oiya..doakan smoga harapan gw dikabulkan ok??

wish u were here jay.....

u know u love me,

=..::LX::..=

uhm.....Spread the cheer its a happy day!!!!!!!!!

2004-11-16T08:17:00.000+11:00

hoi..hoi....
yippeee......Thank U God 4 such a Wonderful day !!!!!
heheheheh....gw seneng bgt hr ini......huehehehehhe....
gw sedang bersantai di kamar gw sambil mendegarkan musik......huahahhaha...nikmat bgt dah..
tp gw laper..hix.....argghhhhh.....ya suw la ya.....
Anyways, gw seneng sekali akhir2 ini....things are getting better and better everyday.....akhirnya bentar lgi liburan.....AKHIRNYA.....
tapi ga terasa uda 1 smstr gw di klas 2..IPA lgi..huehehhe....nilai gw uda kompeten ko..never thought i would make it this far.....senang....senang...gw cma pengen nunjukin ke smua orang yg sudah meremehkan gw, kalo gw bisa....biarlah mereka menjilat kembali kata2nya... jahat yah gw??? bdo ah..mang gw gtu ko....abisnya mereka juga jahat ma gw......its a revenge, man !! buat org2 yg menganggap gw goblok..ato sejenisnya...Ntar bakal gw buktikan lgi kalo gw ga goblok..dengan sesuatu yg lebi besar..nanti kalo gw lulus.....just wait and see.....
hehehe..yg bisa gw lakukan sekarang adalh.......Belajar, belajar, dan belajar...biar impian gw terwujud...ehm..i'll tell you bout it someday..not now....blom pasti juga seh.....
Ayo berjuang demi semuanya.......demi sahabat2 gw yg sudah mendukung gw sejauh ini..Thank you so much !!!!!!!! u Guys RoCK!!!
ehm..ehem...wakakakakkakakakakakkakakakak..................gw Senang SKali !!!!!!liburan nanti bakal menjadi pengalaman yg tak terlupakan...its gonna be fun.....loads of fun..yakin...but sblmnya da ulum nie....ayo blajar yg bner ga bole males selangkah lgi......menuju 'monyet', ck, fcuk, dan kawan2nya......wkakakakakkakka...sometimes its just too good too be true.....you know....since we got together that day...huahhahahhaaha......udah ah..cape ketawa mulu..yg baca juga pusink.....hehehhehe....
yg pasti gw happy dengan keadaan gw yg skarang...o iya...gw perna nyna ma jay, tentang tmen2nya dia.. gw tanya mereka kaberatan ngga dengan u know....we're bein together...
i mean....we're just to different..u know..dan ya...jawabannya cukup mengagetkan gw....tersirat dalam jawabannya sesuatu yg..ehmm...hes never said before...dia jawab, "theyre happy as long as i am..." well, menurut lo gmn?? hehheheh..yah pikirkan sendiri lah maksudnya.....
anyways...ulang taounnya dia deketan ma gw loh......huehhehuehuehuehuehue.....
4 September...keren yah?? 424..wakakakkaa....gw sudah menggila nie.......
tiba2 g wkepikiran ma guru2 sanur nie...kayaknay semuanya pada udah kagak waras....either yg bawelnya setengah mampus sampe semuanya dikomenin ato yang suka ga jelas marah2 tanpa sebab.....wkakakakakakkakakak...bingung ah..gw enek bgt di indo....smua org indo kaga waras............Stress bgt dah gw tinggal di indo.....pegel.....cape ati.....
udah ah.........gw mo maen the sims nie..mumpung liburan.....puasin2 lah..ntar masuk2 uda ga bisa pegang kompie lagi.......nikmatilah liburan ini selgi kau bisa.........
CiAO!!!!!!!!!!!

wish u were here, Jay..............

Mari bersorak-sorai,

=..::LX::..=

GuiLTy

2004-11-15T22:01:00.000+11:00

hix..hix...
iya nie..gw ngerasa bersalah bgt..hix..hix...hix...Ntar de kapan2 gw critain....
it has nothing to do with you anyway.......ok.. sorry....
Anyways...let just get over it...
ehm..gw bru Pulang dr TA nie..td gw ntn SHARK TALE...huahhahaha..akhirnya....
sumpa ni film keren abis.....inti critanya keren...about being 'somebody' or 'nobody'...sumpa keren abis...nonton deh..dijamin ga rugi......Lucu pula....tp cuma 1 jam-an lah....bentar but its worth watching kalo lo suka film animasi.....keren.....ga terasa bulan depan udah desember....bentar lgi taon 2004 udah abis....taon yg lumayan baik buat gw....i dont have any idea about whats gonna happen next year...but i guess its gonna be heaps of fun....ga terasa juga..i dunno...gw taon ini udah berubah byk....itu klo lo setuju ma pendapat gw...abise...byk org bilang gw berubah....mungkin...some people says its because my boyfriend...iya...gotta admit it...dia udah mengubah gw..byk..mengajarkan hal2 yg ga pernah terpikir sblmnya....dan taon ini gw juga dapet tmen2 yg well, supportive...u know who...baik tmen dr sanur maupun tmen2 bae gw yg jauh di sana...Christie, Dylan an Jason...ga nyangka aj klo gw bisa deket ma dia2 org...i mean Christie ma Jason....ge deket ma mereka juga sejak gw jadian ma Jay....enatah mengapa gw ngerasa lebi enjoy temenan ma mereka...gw ngerasa lebi cocok aj..ad bbrapa hal yang ga gw temukan pada tmen2 gw di indo..bulan brarti gw ga enjoy ma tmen2 gw disini...gw sayang semuanya...cuma gw ngerasa sifat2 gw lebi cocok ma mereka..mgkn juga itu sebabnya gw ga betah di indo....gw ga cocok ma kehidupan di sini...gw pengen bebas..segi positif...dont get it wrong ok? mereka lebih bisa menghargai prbedaan..ga kaya disini..disana minoritas malah dilindungi klo di sini mah minortas digencet..makanya gw enek bgt di sini....mereka juga lebi care...an lebi cuek....mirip ma gw lah..mgkn buat standar org indo gw terlalu cuek..tp buat mereka gw fine2 aj...Chris bilang gw cool malah...=P..gw GR bgt yah...
gw ga tau menurut klaian gw org yg kaya gmn...but i'm happy with who i am.....mungkin ad bbrp sifat jelek gw yang annoying....ok...gotta work on those bad ones...i'm trying...
heheheh..gw berubah byk yah??
Mungkin byk temen SMP gw bingung dgn gw yg sekarang..well..This is The Real Me....gw bru sadar klo gw di smp dulu bukan gw yng sebnernya...if i look back on those days gw terpikir kok...gw goblok bgt yah? gw kaya ngga ngeliat diri gw sendiri....what do you think??
duh ko..tiba2 jd serius gini yah??? huehehehhe
udah ah. o iya..jgn berharap lo bakal membaca sesuatu yng lucu di sini....mungkin ga sekarang...you will in time... makanya judulnya ReALiFe...hehehehe
udah ah...daku capek...............mo makan..trus bobo...( gila gw kebo bgt yah? bodo ah...=p)
CiAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wish you were here jay....

Loads of Love,

=..::LX::..=

Love is n the air...everywhere i look around........

2004-11-15T07:40:00.000+11:00

hoi..hoi....
gila yah..pagi2 gene....iya nih..semuanya hr ini lg penuh Cinta...............
ga tau napa..
hr ini gw pengen crita....nasib gw....hix...gw ga jd nonton bol..ketiduran..huahhahahhaha..bego bgt yah gw.....ya gitu de..udh gtu skrg gw dlm penantian..gw sedang menunggu seseorang...u know who....ya sapa lg.....
Hr ini gw ga tau mau ngapain....bingung.........mo jalan males..palingan ke mall..udah enek gw...mana byk anak muda yang gayanya sok kool....geli dah...pake rok mini..pahanya budukan..pamer bokong...bokong selulitan lgi...huh...bikin gw pusing aj....mana kalo jalan ga bisa lurus....kayak ayam sakit tetelo....kakakikik ga jelaz pula.....enek bgt dah..jujur gw uda malez bgt tinggal di indo..najiz 7777777 turunan dah..manusia indo udah pada kaga punya otak...cape..kaga nyambung.....contoh.....lagu "rocker juga manusia"...lha...yng bilang lu monyet sapa?? berasa lu kaya monyet..pisau belati segala lgi....lu ngomng kyak gtu ma bebek sih bodo..sama2 kaga nyambung...
GELI bgt dah....makanya..gw udah bersumpah....skali gw bisa sekolah keluar..gw ga akan balik ke indo klo ga terpaksa....males bgt disini...eek..geli bgt.......brengsek lagi.....indo mah uda kaga bisa diarepin....generasi muda aj udah penyakitan...ayam tetelo aj masi lebi mending......
udah ah cape.....gw pengen ntn shark tale nie....
eh...btw, mo gw critain ttg Jay ga?
ok untuk hr ini gw kasi tau nama lengkapnya....."Alexander Jay White"..
keren Yah??? ehehhehe..alexandernya itu....
tau ah...he's my drug addiction.....udah ah..bentar lgi gw mo pegi nie....
CIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wish u were here jay !

without Love,

=..::LX::..=

hoi..hoi....

2004-11-14T22:48:00.000+11:00

hoRE!!!!!!! aKhirnYA lIbuR Juga.....
hikS...gw sedi nie.....hr ini orang yg Gw tunggu ga online2....kangen bgt............
well..ok...i wanna make a confeesion...i HavE a Boyfriend now...
gw yang dulu.....sudah Mati....things have changed.....
Yang Mungkn suliT dipercAya AdalH....he's American....CaucAsian.....BuLe....
Ntar De Kpn2 Gw TuLIs..sejArah PertemuAn gw denGan Dia...
Dan kiTa udah Jalan...um..6 Months.....KagEt? suDah Gw Duga Kok...
Anyways..gw Br pulang Dr Ps nie..Jaln2 bli Makanan...sejak pemboKi Gw pulAng KampUNG diRumah gw Jadi Susah Makanan ...huehehuehuehe.....
Tau ah..Hari ini oTak gw Kacau bgt.....uDah ah...mo nonTon BOla....CiAO!!!!!!!!!

wiSh You were Here, JAy.....

=.::LX::..=